Liane says..

Mummy's Belated Birthday at Peperoni & LJS with Sindee

2011-07-20T17:17:00.001+08:00

Im lagging behind really badly! These two sets of photos are dated all the way back to 12th and 13th June! Haha i need to pull up my socks!

Went Peperoni's Pizzeria at Greenwood Ave (near NJC) to celebrate my mum's belated birthday after Sunday Service! My sis picked this place cos my mum likes pizza alot and also cos it's famous for their XXXL pizza~! I just realised all my sentences end with a ! this is a very bad habit of mine hahahaha

Check out the drawings on the wall!

The drawings beside our table!

Hello Sissy!

Hello Jiefu!

Hehehe mummy!

I copy her

Here comes our super huge pizza! Half Hawaiian and half Suprema (chicken sausage)!! Looks normal? Check out the pics below!

Crispy potato wedges with tartar sauce!

Lookie! My sister is puny!

Lookie!

Digging in!

Hello papa! He refused to take any proper pictures cos he knew i'd be posting them on Facebook.

My mum drew this! She said it's me! So ugly :( Since when my hair curl from the roots :(

The next day, Sinyee and i headed out for LJS Brekkie at IMM! Come to think of it, it's been more than a month since then and we're still jobless! Sigh.

Turkey Bacon Breakfast Meal yummmm

Sindee's drink with some Milo nougats

My prettayye~

Me = boy :(

After that we went to the library to borrow some books! Haha it's been some time since we got to read a book so yea, might as well..

I was quite shocked when i saw this pic! Am i THAT fair!? seems like i need some sun!

After that we went NTUC to get some titbits and stuff.. Things jobless people do..

She bully me :'(

My books! I took so long to complete the english one while i finished the chinese one within 4h!! Die im officially a cheenapok!

Been busy with packing 发菜 the whole of last week! Stats for the whole week: 277 packets, 270 packets, 376 packets, 357 packets and 370 packets from Monday to Friday. One packet 20 cents. Opportunity courtesy of CH. Numbers are inaccurate cos he gave me many many packets thru out the week heh heh heh. Also, he helped me with the sealing of my packets while i continued to up my stats hahaha. His way of 赎-ing 罪! (Please read previous entry if you are unsure of what happened.) Will upload pics soon! (:

Boys

2011-07-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

Oops it's been 2 weeks since the last post. I've been lazy! Gone for 2 interviews, extracted my wisdom tooth and the rest of the days were spent going out, spending more money (on top of online shopping), reading books, youtubing and.. lying on the bed. Ahhh how could i allow myself to spend my life this way!? SIGH.

Met up with LX sometime back (okay quite sometime back hahaha) for Thai food and we've been hooked ever since. Actually i believe it's only the Fried Buttered Calamari that we crave for sometimes. Okay i know he reads this space, so actually it's just ME who craves for it. We decided on Thai food because we couldnt think of anywhere else "exotic" enough (by his standards), and not too expensive. Found good reviews on this place through ladyironchef and so we headed there!

Ah Loy Thai at Shaw Towers

Ordering food. LX says, "Hmmm we can eat 5 dishes!"

Thai Milk Tea which was diifferent from our usual milk tea. Very special taste!

When this came, we pondered for quite sometime cos we don't remember ordering it. So we decided to try it to decide. And INDEED, it wasnt close to any dish we ordered. The waitress couldnt understand what we were trying to say so we decided to keep mum bout it haha.

MY LOVE!!!!! GOSHHH SUPER NICE FRIED BUTTER CALAMARI I WANNA DEVELOP THIS PHOTO AND FRAME IT UP AND HANG IT IN MY ROOM OMG.

Tomyam Goong which was too sour/ spicy for me!

French beans with minced meat which we polished off the plate!

Pineapple Fried Rice which is very normal and not worth mentioning.

Seafood Phad Thai. This came very late and we were secretly hoping that they'd forget our order (since the other dish came)! But it didnt fare too badly though i felt so uncomfortable cos the people around us were all STARING!! 2 ppl 6 dishes!! seriously.......

Hi Mr Spastic, 5 dishes was too much (we had 6, unfortunately). 4 would have been better.

After that we couldnt even walk properly hahaha okok it was ME!! i couldnt walk properly, much less have dessert! So we walked back to Bugis and trained home. For some strange reason, i didnt realise the existence of the strap hooks on BOTH sides of my s95. I saw the hook on the left and hung the strap there. Until LX proclaimed that he didnt know i was a leftie hahahaha. Super paiseh please!!

This is one of the photos we took with LX using my s95

And this is taken using his own s95!

WHY AH WHY AH? Why use yours? I forgot! Haha please text me to let me know. I really cannot remember!

The next day i had lunch with a very old yet not very very 熟 friend hahaha. We werent in the same class back in primary school, not same CCA either.. For some reason that's not very convenient to be mentioned here, in this space, we knew each other. And one day we were chatting on MSN and since both of us were bored, we decided to meet for lunch! We went Din Tai Fung and..

CH, i still wanna box you very very much!!!!!

He ordered this. Okay looks not bad what right. BUT HE ORDERED 2X OF THIS! OMG!?

And we both wanted the Chicken Chop Ramen and look what he ordered!!!!!!

WHAT IS THIS!? It's too healthy for me who wanted some unhealthy food! 2X this also. I wanted to cry man.

Desserts to save MY day! We went Sudoku/ Sukudo/ Suduko/ Sukodu or is it Shoduko/ Shokudo?? Whatever.

My chocolate banana crepe with lychee sorbet ice cream yayyyy

YUMMEHHH!! Ive been very into desserts these days.. sweet tooth!

CH's waffle with white coffee ice cream

Very satisfied me!! Beats eating some chicken soup ramen that tastes so bland eeks. HAHA.

Bummer

2011-06-23T18:30:00.002+08:00

My sore gum seems to be much better today! I even asked my dad to get me Mos Burger's Wagyu Beef Burger for lunch cos i really cannot stand eating porridge/ soupy stuff anymore! Happiness is temporary only though cos im gonna have my wisdom tooth extracted tomorrow! :( Anyhow, those who have yet to try the Wagyu Beef Burger from Mos, do give it a try, even if you arent a fan of beef! Im okay with beef, i'm not a meat-lover but this is too good man! The beef's really tender and the texture of the mushrooms with it, made the burger really yummmmayyee!! I wanna eat it again!!

Anyhow, went Partyworld with the bf's little cousins sometime ago since it was their school holidays! Haha they are not that little in size but im like 4 years older than the bf's sister so that's.. :( We had some time to spare before singing so we went to Nex's foodcourt for some food.

Kids having their carrot cake!

Partyworld was freezing man! Actually the whole of Nex was super cold!

Show Luo, one of the singers we listen to..

Guess what kind of songs the kids were singing..

Super Junior!!! this is in Chinese so it's still fine but..

THIS!? -.-

Very blur.. i like! (:

After that the kids went home for dinner and the bf and i settled at Pasta Mania for dinner. I used to think i like Pasta Mania alot but im wrong!!! I like only Turkey Bacon Aglio, and that's it! I always regret ordering any other pasta halfway through my meal.

The Tomyam Seafood pasta which i really.. it has this really weird creamy sauce.. tasted really funny.. doesnt taste tomyam at all!

ORDER THIS! wont go wrong no matter how bad it's cooked! This is coming from someone who doesnt like tomato sauce/ cream sauce though. Olive oil ftw!

Headed over to Sogurt for some froyo! Our first time!

Sogurt works by the DIY way. Here are the different sizes of the cups you can choose from!

Red Velvet Cake & Chocolate flavoured froyo

We had the Green Apple one which was not bad!

Grape & Green Apple flavoured froyo

Peach Mango flavoured and Plain froyo! We mixed Green Apple with the Plain one.

Large selection of toppings

Our cup came to a cost of $7 odd cos we had 2 servings of froyo, which was a little too much but we finished it anyway haha.

Sogurt Card!

On 3 June, the bf and i went to Hatched for our Brunch! We took 154 from Clementi and had to walk quite a distance before reaching the place. Concept's like Wild Honey, they serve All Day Breakfast. Cost wise, it was definitely less pricey then Wild Honey. Portion's rather small though. But i like it this way cos i prefer variety over portion.

Very cute menu

Salt and pepper! So cute!

My date :D I love this pic! I love the wall. I want this kind of walls for my home next time :D

Iced Chocolate which wasnt too sweet.

I bunned up my hair the other day but no pictures of the bun cos Sinyee saw the pic and commented that i looked like some Palace Ge Ge -.-

J's pathetic plate of food hahahaha but pictures dont do justice to this photo he took. There was quite alot of beef inside and the combi tasted great! For meat-lovers =/= me.

My smoked salmon plate which was heavenly! I dont eat sashimi so towards the end i couldnt take anymore of the smoked salmon but it's quite tasty! Just didnt like the texture of raw food. But that's just me! Sashimi-lovers will love this! (:

I REALLY REALLY WANNA HAVE THIS AGAIN! Blueberry waffle! haha it's nothing very special but the waffle was really fluffy. And after having a full salty meal, this sweet fluffy waffle was like an icing on the cake. YUMMEH.

My favourite picture <3

Went orchard after that and saw some Mongolian kids doing acrobatic stunts to collect money for their education. It was quite sad actually. Some adults were at the back chit-chatting and they controlled the music. So the kids had to do all sorts of stunts when music was being played.

The following Monday, i met Baoxuan to go to some job agencies together. Met at Clementi Mall for brunch at Long John Silver's! Me likey! :D

They are having some $4.50 promotion now so i chose the set with 4 mini shrimps. Beats having to eat two chunks of chicken haha.

After visiting the agencies, we went to Citylink to shop around for work attires. And i bought Garrett popcorn! Couldnt withstand the temptation. The whole Citylink was filled with the sweet caramel smell haha.

Browsing at the shops..

I LOVE THIS POLKADOTTED DRESS I TRIED BUT THEY DIDNT HAVE MY SIZE ANYMORE! As you can see, it's quite big at the pits. It's $50, almost twice the amount i usually spend on a dress from online shopping but the quality's superb! Maybe i should go back and check if new stocks for this dress are coming in.

They have it in pink also, which looks like Beige/ Taupe here but it's pink in reality. Sweet max!

Bumped into the Hershey's mascot next door and he posed for me! So cute!! I was telling BX and CX that who knows, the person inside might be someone we know haha. the feeling's so strange cos we were kinda gushing at how cute it was and all.

Hershey's plushies! So cute!

Got the stall assistant to help us with the pics!

CX came to join us but i had to leave after that for home cos.. i wanted to camp for Catwalkclose's launch =x

On the bus home..

Very pretty serviettes that came with the popcorn!

Alrights! Gotta have dinner now.. Am quite nervous for tmr's minor surgery.. mmy phobia towards dentists started cos of my primary school dentist. I still remember the grey hair, thick specs, huge eyes.. and how the dentist used to pull and tug at my teeth.. *shudders*

Meet ups with my lovelies

2011-06-21T17:42:00.001+08:00

Am currently nursing an aching wisdom tooth/ gum at home so i shall not procrastinate on blogging. Still reading a book i borrowed last week and im not even half done (yikes)! SO sick of job-hunting too.. so, here i am!

On 28th May, CHPT4 met up for K Lunch! It was just KBox and nothing else because everyone's so busy all the time. But i'm glad we took 3h off our schedules for a meet-up! I havent seen the girls for so long cos I was busy preparing for my exams. And during my exam period, they've already met up twice! :( Anyhow, if anybody's keen to know, our group's name (sounds so old-school haha) came from our surnames! People who know us personally would know haha. It was Miss Tan's brilliant idea, something which Rachel is still afraid to let people know. Haha, not surprising to me.. We are indeed too old for such things! We went to the new KBox outlet located at CCK. It's just beside Lot1 Shopping Mall and im really glad we picked this place! The interior's really nicely decorated. Looks atas sia!

Lightings in our room

Waiting to order our drinks and food! Oops i think i forgot to take pics of our food..

Qimin singing and Pung covering up. Haha no pics of her cos she refused to take any pictures with her specs on!

刘若英's 后来

ZL picking songs from a touchscreen. This thing has a recording system and we had fun recording our voices.

CHT3 haha

Fun shot! hahaha

The corridor, on our way out. Super nice right! Like some resort~ we HAD to take a pic there!

Some realisation that provided me with transport to my Grandma's place! Kudos to Rachel hehheh. Here's Ah Gong's dog - BOSCO!

Looks like he's suffering from constipation here hahaha

My saturday night ended with dinner at IMM with Mr Ling. I almost fainted when i saw what he wore omggg. Quote TPL, "I dont know what to say". Really.

On 30th May, my dear Sindee and i went out for our usual date hahaha. We used to have many many more shopping trips in the past until i got hooked onto online shopping and didnt need physical shopping anymore :p Anyway we were both busy with our exams so this was our first date after ending our uni lives. We headed to Far East Plaza, our usual haunt since we had a direct bus there. As usual, Sindee loves KFC!

We both had Cheesy BBQ Meltz and because of her reminder that there's Student Meal (no need to be student, look like can already what right?), i got the discount and upsized my whipped potato to CHEESE FRIES!! I really dislike KFC's fries, whipped potato and coleslaw so Cheese Fries is a must!

There her long fingers hahahaha. Im so gonna get killed.

Sindee so pretty ((:

I contemplated for quite sometime if i should post this pic up cos i look barely awake.

After walking around Far East Plaza, I was actually considering to get 3 bags! Haha i could only turn my attention to bags/ shoes cos i haave way too many pieces of clothing and i know i cant resist shopping for them online so i MUST resist shopping for apparels physically! We decided to go Ion Shopping Mall and then head back to FEP later since we were gonna take the bus home from there. Wanted to try Happy Lemon since i've heard bout the raves and so we went to search for it...

(Not so) HAPPY LEMON. Located at the basement of ION Shopping Mall. I'll explain why i wasnt happy later.

The menu

Heh i koped the flyer again like how i have the flyers for KOI, ShareTea etc.

Ahh eyebags :(

That's my drink on the left, Tea Latte with Oreo Cookies & Cream with big pearls and Sindee's Caramel Tea Latte with Brown Sugar Jelly. I was looking forward to drinking something thick and chocolatey but I GUESS I MADE THE WRONG CHOICE! It's purely pearl milk tea with pieces of oreo cookie once in a blue moon. Yes, meaning sip sip sip sip sip ooh oreo. sip sip sip sip sip sip ahh oreo. :( Whereas Sindee's Caramel Tea Latte was so much nicer!! Ahhh :(

Can use as advertisement already haha.

Very mian qiang :(

Epic fail. Sindee said both eyes looked the same o.O

Tried my VERY best! My FB profile pic now.

I was really annoyed that she covered her face with the drink! Her face's already so small can..

Anyway i bought the most expensive bag in the end! Shall not blog about it till i use it. Haha must force myself to use it. It's not a bag i get to use very often. Quite funky. I hope im not too old for it =| Till then!

阿嬷

2011-06-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

Just received an email from my aunt a while back. It was an email about my grandparents, in particular, my grandmother whom we affectionately call Ah Ma. Some of you might know, my Ah Ma's suffering from Dementia. It's been sometime since she was diagnosed with it and she has since lost weight drastically (or perhaps, it was gradual but since i (regretfully) only visit my grandparents during family gatherings, the change in her appearance seems drastic to me).

Like what my aunt mentioned in the email, Ah Ma used to be a strong and able woman. I've heard about how my grandfather (Ah Gong) used to be disloyal towards her in the past. I was very young then, but i still remember this particular scene where my grandparents fought and Ah Gong lifted his arm up, wanting to hit Ah Ma. Fortunately, my mum managed to stop him in time. Nothing serious happened in the end but this scene has been etched in my mind even after almost 20 years. I still remember standing outside the kitchen watching, horrified.

Despite not having a loving husband, Ah Ma kept the house in order. We used to live in a semi-d at Bukit Timah, with other cousins and their families (who came and went). Almost everybody (all the cousins, aunts and uncles), even those not living with us, would come over for dinner EVERYDAY. Ah Ma would then singlehandedly whip up dishes for the whole family! Other than cooking us meals, she also took care of the kids when our parents were at work - bathing and feeding my younger cousins and making sure they took their afternoon naps while keeping a watchful eye over the older ones who were always up to mischief. In her free time, she would tend to the pots of plants in the backyard, something she still does these days.

Ah Ma was always the first one to wake up in the morning to make coffee and the last one to go to bed, making sure all electrical appliances have been switched off and keeping the living room tidy before she sleeps. I used to snuggle up to Ah Ma while watching tv together with her in the living room. It was comfy even though i smelled a mixture of perspiration + grease from the cooking. Haha my mum used to be amazed with my strong tolerance towards the "scent". She will always scream at me to bathe if i havent showered by 10am, though it seems this teaching isnt incorporated into my life since i only bathe at 10pm these days. Haha.

When i was 11, we moved out of the place, just like my cousins and their families. I remember having a mixture of feelings. I didnt understand why we had to move out but at the same time, i was excited to have my own room. I gradually understood, as i grew older, that it wasnt that easy for everyone to live together. As the saying goes, “家家有本难念的经”- as a family, we do care for each other, but within every immediate family and every individual, there's bound to be self-centredness. Everyone is self-interested. Even the kindest and nicest person on Earth, is self-interested. We are just human, nobody's perfect..

Soon after, my aunt got a place at a condo for my grandparents and the semi-d was sold.

I miss the place so much, the place i learnt to crawl, walk, run and even rollerblade! I remember going back to the place with my parents just to see how it was like after the new owners moved in. The once lively home with 3 dogs, rabbits, hamsters, star tortoises, chickens, birds, koi fishes, pots of flowers, a long wall of orchids and a huge, noisy family, became a dull-looking, quiet house. The new owners didnt remove our swing though, the swing my cousins and i used to have so much fun with...

After my grandparents moved into the condo, family gatherings only happened on occasions like Mothers' Day, Fathers' Day, Christmas Day, Chinese New Year etc, which basically also meant that i meet my grandparents on these occasions only. I didnt visit them regularly, tagging along with my parents only, at times. But i can almost see how my Ah Gong's face light up everytime i appear. :*) Unfortunately, that smile didnt motivate me to visit them regularly.

Ah Ma's condition has deterioriated ever since. In the beginning she forgot the things she said before and kept repeating her questions. Gradually she began to fumble with daily routines like going to the washroom. Now she's very reliant on Ah Gong and has to keep Ah Gong in sight no matter where she goes. I've heard about my aunts losing their temper at Ah Ma because she asks the same question over and over again. All i can say is that, i might also get agitated if i were to be by her side 24/7, answering the same questions over and over again. I wont know how difficult and frustrating it might be because i only visit them once in a blue moon. And honestly speaking, i no longer find it comfortable sitting beside Ah Ma, talking to her, like how i used to when i went home from Primary School. There is a certain awkwardness. I dont really know what to talk about, what to ask and what to update her on.

Ah Gong, on the other hand, has been a good husband to Ah Ma ever since the diagnosis. He has been more tolerant than any of us, even though he flares up at times. (Honestly speaking, who wont?) He complains to us about how difficult it is to bring her out but he still brings her out often. He loves making new friends, going out and travelling. And for someone who's always on the go to look after a patient with Dementia, it's really not easy. In the email my aunt wrote to all of us, she mentioned that she hopes that all of us can forgive him, even though he wasnt a good husband or father in the past. For the third generation me, i dont really feel any hatred or disregard towards him. To me, Ah Gong is someone who used to shower us with gifts when we were young, fetch us home from school and someone who's proud of us when we do well. I will never know some things that happened between him and our second generation and will never understand. But i do hope that there'd be forgiveness, even though it's never easy.

I really felt the pinch when i read the last part of the email. I've never thought of how Ah Ma must be feeling everyday. For such a strong woman to fumble with daily routines, she must be feeling so so helpless. She must be wondering everytime someone flares up at her, what mistake she made, why she's being scolded, not knowing that she'd just asked a senseless question multiple times, not knowing that she asked it a few seconds ago. Just what wrong did she do to make us flare up at her? Being diagnosed with dementia is not within her control. Isnt it easier for us, her children and grandchildren, who has more control over ourselves, to control our temper instead of expecting her to control her actions? For someone who has done so much for the family, it must be worth it isnt it..

I really hope to visit my grandparents more often from now on. I dont wish to regret, if anything should happen. It's really sad that life is as such.

I rule the world now, with NO MORE exams

2011-06-14T22:17:00.001+08:00

Very very backdated entry and i have like 6 more entries to go.. Looks like i've been going out too often! Haha. I've been eating good food almost everyday. The tummy is growing bigger while the wallet is becoming thinner. I need income!! But i dont wanna work. How is this gonna work out? Btw i really need a laptop!! This netbook is screwing my eyesight up :( Enough of my rants!!

On 24th May, i met up with my ex-colleagues from HSBC! Kudos to Sihui for organising this meet-up. Super guilty towards her cos i took like 3 days on average to reply her smses during the exam period. =/ We met at Mapletree Business City (or is it Centre? i keep forgetting.)'s Astons cos the HR Dept's there now. The place is really nice for a workplace man. Many restaurants within and there's a clinic as well. And i just realised Sihui and i didnt take any photos together as i'm loading the pics. :(

My usual order - Hickory BBQ Chicken + Baked Potato + Boiled Vegetables
I really love broccoli and baby carrots <3

HSBC peeps! I took some candid shots of them but shall not post them up just incase people complain that it's unglam :p

Sihui and i went to Vivo City after that. We, the jobless people, walked around aimlessly and ended up at Starbucks!

Sihui playing with my iPhone apps.

Me smsing!

My frappe and Sihui's juice. Sooo healthy! And that's the pen
Sihui made for me!! haha so sweet. i wont be using it though. (: thanks babe!!

Then we started playing with my Canon s95! Tried the various functions..

Colour Accent

Poster Effect, which effect is much more visible here as compared to what we saw on the cam.

A usual shot of Sentosa and the sea. Looks quite pretty. Wait till you see the next pic!

This is on Vivid mode!! Super pretty right!! Super blue sea and the clouds look almost fake! Love the colours! Happy colours ((:

Colour Accent again. How i wish we had autumn here!

And 3 days after that, i brought J to try the deadly Tomyam Fish Maggi Mee. It's at one of the small coffee shops behind Golden Shoe Hawker and the queue during lunch hours is always very very long. I believe the speciality of this stall other than the fact that they use instant noodles, is their home-made tomyam soup! The tomyam soup is not cooked with tomyam paste like how many other stalls cook their tomyam (excluding authentic thai stalls), but it's cooked with spices! You can literally see the chilli padi in the soup. And after i almost died the last time i tried it, i decided to order the usual non-spicy soup base and steal a few scoops of the tomyam soup from J.

The signboard. I spotted some bible verses there! heh.

$5 for tomyam noodles

Someone who can take spicy food very well actually had a tummy upset later on.

Piping hot and spicy = deadly!

Non-spicy soup base. Not as tasty but yeah better than having a tummyache haha!

猫空奶茶 at Arcade！我好想你！The usual pearl milk tea is comparable to Koi i feel. Something to cheer me up when i was working at HSBC.

Its from Taiwan as well!

We went to Cineleisure after that to catch Thor and before that we had our dose of Frolick! Yummm!

I got this from one of the shops at Cine and i really like it! The robots are sooo cute please! Love my Lilypirates dress also haha!

There're cute little florals inside too. Not that it can be seen easily but still pretty what! I learnt how to change the ISO of my cam back home and took this shot hehe.

Dinner was at Wild Honey, Mandarin Gallery with Jerome, Alan and a new friend, Gwen!

Love the cosy place, love the ambience!

The menu written on a chalkboard! I want a chalkboard at home next time (:

The menu could be seen on an iPad too! with very nicely taken pictures of the different breakfasts available!

Atas or what!

Alan, who was late! :<

A new friend, Gwen, who works with the guys at Citi.

English Breakfast which Jerome, Justin and myself ordered! The portion is HUGE so J and i shared one since we were full from bbtea.

I love Wild Honey so much cos of the food and mostly the ambience! They serve All-day breakfasts so we were having breakfast for dinner. It's kinda pricey though. About $25 for the breakfast itself, not including any drinks or desserts you may wish to order. But the place is so cosy and i cant get enough of it! After that we went macs to chill cos we couldnt get seats at Starbucks/ Coffeebean.

Alan said the Iced Latte tastes really really bad, he thought the coffee has gone bad =x

:< nose wants some ice cream

AHHH finally! Im not sure if it's blogger or my netbook but it was such a hassle getting this entry up! Half the time the page was lagging/ hanging and the words just wouldnt come out no matter how much i typed. Grrrr. How to type 6 more entries like that!! ANNOYED.

Ok im done! Bye!

Nancy Drew

2011-06-04T23:31:00.013+08:00

Been bumming around for 19 days! Sounds so long but it's just been less than 3 weeks. Havent been actively looking for jobs yet. Really dread getting into the working world.

Anyhow, i was watching Nancy Drew the movie, with my mum, on 5 just now. And i love love love her preppy style and vintagey outfits! Peterpan collars, plaids, tweed jackets, high socks, loafers and a brown satchel! Like how Nancy herself puts it, "I love old-fashioned things." So do i, Nancy. hahaha.

Here are some of the images of the outfits Emma Roberts wore in the movie i grabbed off google. Enjoy (:

SO PRETTY!! I WANT HER OUTFITS!! hahaha. And may i secretly confess.. i was watching the movie for the outfits most of the time instead of following the plot haha.

And something else i found on wikihow.com,

Steps to looking like Nancy Drew

(1) Wear your hair naturally, whether straight or curly. If you put your hair in a braid, ponytail, or up in any way, wear a ribbon. Do not put your hair into a messy ponytail. Bangs are okay part your hair to the side and wear a head band if it is down. You can dye it strawberry blonde or red if you want and get colored contacts for blue eyes.

(2) Stay fresh and clean. Take a shower at least once a day. Brush your teeth and wash your face twice a day. Shave as often as you need to for smooth skin. Preps always take care of themselves. If you have bad skin, see a dermatologist.

(3) Incorporate plaid into your wardrobe. Lots and lots of plaid. You can usually get plaid clothing such as skirts and jackets from department stores (Kohl's or Candies in the U.S.). A little sleuthing is likely to get you a pair of adorable plaid shorts. For a well put together outfit, use a complimentary color combination. Match one or two colors from the plaid design with a top, jacket, headband, etc.

(4) Have a preppy, classic wardrobe. Be modest and wear preppy clothes from stores like J. Crew, Lacoste, Ralph Lauren, Banana Republic, etc. If you want more high end clothing try Burberry, who is know for their plaid. Be original too. An interesting option are pleated or pencil skirts. They add to the timeless sincerity of the outfit.

(5) Know that headbands will also add a charming touch to the outfit. Nancy Drew’s style is in stores right now, so you can usually find quite a collection of cute, wind-banded headbands in stores. Keep your color combinations in mind when buying them.

(6) Wear dark brown penny loafers. They are practical and sincere, just like Nancy Drew. If you can't find penny loafers, try Sperry boat shoes.

(7) Wear a brooch for a touch of class. Nancy wears one with her initials on it.

(8) Get your clothes from a traditional, upper class stores. Get timeless, classic clothes that will always look stylish. DO get brands such as J.Press, Ralph Lauren, Brooks Brothers, Jack Rogers, J. Crew, Vineyard Vines, Lacoste, Nantucket Brand, Burberry, Lilly Pulitzer, Bloomingdales, & Saks 5th avenue.

(9) Consider wearing some sweaters or cardigans that complement your wardrobe. Nancy Drew often ties sweaters around her shoulders.

(10) Wear short scarves around your neck. Nancy knots them on the side of her neck. You can get scarves at thrift stores, or just about any store that sells garments.

(11) Always wear something comfortable. Don't wear something like, a leather jacket (makes too much noise), flip flops (makes running difficult), and jeans (brushes and makes noise when walking or running). These kinds of clothes give yourself away very easily. Try to wear matching clothes so you look sophisticated. sporty clothes are good for running and don't make much noise.

(12) Always have a keen eye. There is always something interesting happening. Never let anything out of your sight. Nancy Drew saw everything very quickly, and you have to do the same in order to be like her. (remember everything is some kind of evidence, not all in the same case though!)

(13) Increase your vocabulary, and stay away from slang terms. Never swear or say racist comments. This makes you ugly on the inside and rude.

(14) Buy the preppy style clothes. Just because you got some clothes from an upper class store doesn't mean they are preppy. Buy clothes that are classic, and clean-cut. Don't be afraid to splurge on these a little, as preps tend to hold onto clothes for a long time. Remember to make sure your clothes are always clean, and always match. Good fabrics are very important. Get rid of any polyester. Buy mostly 100%cotton, wool and cashmere. Wear preppy colors. Bright and happy, like green, pink, light blue, nautical red, white and navy blue and preppy patterns such as plaid, stripes, gingham, polka dots, argyle, floral, paisley, nova checks, and tartan.

(15) Here are some suggestions for that type of clothing:
-Polo shirts
-Oxford shirts (unlike polos, oxford shirts should always be long-sleeved, if it is warm outside simply roll up the sleeves)
-Rugby shirt
-Cable-knit vests and sweaters (traditional cricket sweaters)
-A jacket or blazer (navy blue is a staple; try seersucker or madras plaid in summer, tweed or corduroy in winter)
-Chino pants-could have cuffs
-Khaki pants. The prep equivalent to jeans.
-Bermuda shorts (khaki, madras plaid, seersucker, linen or preppy prints and patterns)
-Skirts (khaki, madras plaid, seersucker, linen, preppy prints and patterns such as Lilly Pulitzer) -Tea dresses and summer dresses (in madras plaid, preppy colors, seersucker, or linen). A-line dresses, halters, and flowy dresses are acceptable.
-Tennis and golf-inspired shirts, skirts, and dresses

(16)Wear preppy shoes and accessories like these:
-Pearl necklaces and earrings are a must, as well as diamond jewelery (make sure it's small, not fake-looking, and doesn't look too trashy or tacky)
-Most preps wear their mother's, grandmother's, or aunt's old diamond and pearl jewelry, as an "old money" thing.
-Small handbags in simple colors and patterns or large, monogrammed tote bags (L.L. Bean, and Lands' End have good choices). Vera Bradley handbags and wallets are also very preppy but make sure to get the right pattern (in preppy colors).
-Hair accessories such as headbands (silk/satin scarf headbands or hard headbands with ribbon bows) and grosgrain ribbons in preppy colors, prints, and patterns.
-Ribbon belts in a variety of preppy prints, patterns, and colors or, especially for guys, black or brown leather belts.
-Preppy girls wear ballet flats, top-siders (boat shoes), ribbon/canvas flip-flops, Rainbow sandals, and simple leather high heels and wedges in shoes.
-Wearing a pair of top-siders without socks is classic preppy.

(17) Stand up to others. You can't let your partner be let down. You have to be nice to be a prep. Don't be too nice though because people will think that you are a weirdo. And Nancy Drew isn't a weirdo. She will speak up and be kind to everyone.

Some tips..

(1) As mentioned before, plaid goes a long way.
(2) Make sure every outfit is neat, well coordinated, and aesthetically pleasing.
(3) Try not to over-accessorize, because it makes the outfit look messy. A simple necklace and pearl earrings will do. A ring can be an added touch on special occasions.
(4) Your facial expressions and posture are one of the most important things to pull off this look. (5) If you wear this look sporting a sour face and a slouch, it's hardly going to create the look you want. A smile and good posture always go a long way.
(6) Ask yourself when buying clothes "Could I see Nancy Drew wearing this?"
(7) Wear sensible clothes. You don't want to be wearing a skirt in the winter when its freezing.
(8) Don't wear to much makeup; wear natural colors like brown or light pink.
(9) Also wear a watch so then you can keep track of the time while sleuthing.

Also,

(1) Don't be afraid to add your own take on the Nancy Drew style.
(2) Always be curious.
(3) Some people think Nancy's style is a little weird. Don't get let anything they say or do get you down. Nancy always stands tall and proud no matter what people say or do to her.

Things i'd need..

(1) Penny loafers
(2) Knee socks/leg warmers
(3) Pencil skirts
(4) Tartan headbands
(5) Tartan Shirts
(6) Tartan jackets
(7) Headbands
(8) Sweaters
(9) Scarves for your neck
(10) A brooch with your initials
(11) Messenger/shoulder bag

Haha helpful much? I personally think some tips/ steps are too much. It's like "I WANT TO BE NANCY DREW"! Im not quite into that. I too old for things like that hahaha. I'd like to be myself in her outfits! hahaha.

2011-04-22T13:25:00.000+08:00

Im so tired.. and the occasional abdominal cramps (suspected food poisoning) for the past 3 days and my ever-crazy sensitive nose arent helping..

Cant wait for 16 May to come.. but before that i'd need to go through the whole process 3 times, all over again..

at this time of the year, i just need your understanding and consideration. For through this, i get to know who my true friends are..

HWAITING!! (hur)

2011-04-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

Procrastination is when you know you are supposed to hit the books but you end up doing anything else but study. Oh i'll just watch one more video of my favourite gymnast. Okay i need to study. Oh ya i need to check my mails! Yes i need to study. Oh shoots this dress is so me, do i need another dress? AHH why cant i just freaking study!? =/

It feels just like yesterday when i made the decision of doing my fourth year. Truth to be told, i didnt feel a tinge of sadness when i saw my friends at convocation just last week. And i'm kinda glad i didnt. I need to learn to let go of the past and look forward. And i will. Will need to look for a job after my exams, and i'm glad i'm more or less decided on what kind of jobs to take on. I went for an early childhood education fair few weeks back, and as much as i'd like to work with young children, i think i should just work in the corporate world first. At least, for my first job.

Something which i really hate. I hate it when past memories haunt me and i end up thinking bout all the IFs. I hate the fact that i remember all the things that i sincerely do not wish to remember, and forget all the things that i wished i remembered (so how do i remember forgetting them since i forgot them? Ans: i do remember snippets of them sometimes). After which, i'll hate myself for behaving how i do not want to behave. Me? I? It's confusing.

Btw, very randomly, i think i might just be the only person in the country who watches Artistic Gymnastics. Not soccer, not NBA, not cricket, but Artistic Gymnastics. Am i strange or what? My favourites at the moment would be Deng Linlin from China and Viktoria Komova from Russia. Not that anybody would care to know, but yeah. I enjoy watching them do their passes, their flips, twists, jumps.. and i share their joy when they win a competition by tearing with them. I am really strange.

Im thinking if i should just start a brand new blog after my exams.

I wanted to do a short post. But this looks long.

2011-04-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

BY2 - 爱上你
作词：林天爱/Mr. Mars 作曲：林天爱

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受
我不停寻找着理由解释分手

心好空像没温度的气球
我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
如果同一秒钟你也想起了我
心只要能微微颤抖就已足够

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
或许我永远都看不透

爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

放心我还会好好的过

2010-03-14T17:11:00.000+08:00

Not in the best of moods now.. but i happened to check my blog and saw two monkeys' birthday wishes on my tagboard! I cannot believe they must resort to this.. hahahaha actually they made me laugh quite abit! =.=

So this is what they were afraid of and wanted to see! -points below- My birthday's long gone though.. for a month and a week! ahaha! And they even made some others follow them.

THANK YOU ALL WHO WISHED ME! :D

MSN
Marcus Hong
Richie
Irene
Jerome
Huimin
Guohao
Alan
Peishan

Phonecall
Yingfeng

Ecard
Jerome

Tagboard (Very unfortunately, i had to add this. But Jerome still wins.)
Jerome
Guohao

FB Message
Chiaxuan
Delwin

Facebook
Luanne
Yih Shyang
Jerome
Mingxia
Joel Cheong
Marcus Mar
Guohao
Jian
Dom
Xuanhe
Jasper
Peow Ee
Bowei
Huimin Teo
Liyan
Gary
Xiaoting
Weifang
Youcheng
Yuqian
Shaojun
Matthew Pan
Jiesheng
Serene
Pris
Eeting
Sitong
Fabian
Lishi
Pauline
Mandy
Yuan Ing
Aik Leng
XR Jiefu
Yushu
Alan Goh
Huimin Hong
Terence
Matthew Chen
Xiurong
Kelvin
Soonhock
Colin
Kevin Chow
Felicia
Shuyi
Yande
Wanli
Fuyong
Cheeboon
Erna
Rachelcheong
Huiqi
Yuxian
Cenhui
Meizhen
Qiling
Joseph
Zhenling
Edwin
Jackson
Pam
Pearlyn
Changhong
Fiona

SMS
Nest
Luanne
Jerome
Camellia
Chinyee
Xiurong
Huimin Teo
Guohao
Jasmin
Lishi
Lijia
Deduan
Fukang
Eric
Wenliang
Sinyee
AuntHwa
Weiquan
Nigel
Dorcas
Clement
Soonhock
Tinghui
Lucas
Qimin
Boonwei
Lerxian
Qiting
Seokhwee
Tianlu
Yvonne
Baoxuan
Youhan
Guanbing
Benwei
Matthew Kwan
Peiyin
Desmond
Daniel
Mavis
Iggy

-

Is it time to end right here? Dear Lord, i need You.

2009-12-27T19:42:00.000+08:00

have been rather busy the last two weeks..

on the 16th, we went to Kids United to carry out our charity programme! the first time CCP was a success! It was really tiring, under the hot sun and in the humid area of the centre.. we conducted games and art & craft for the kids.. taught them how to dance.. and ended with passing the parcel, christmas carols, giving out of goodie bags, group prizes and their presents! I have to admit that im one of those who were too tired out and sian by the second half of the day, to be enthusiastic, as mentioned during AAR last week. somehow.. i didnt do my very best again, for my second CCA.. and everything has ended..

OG8 Xmas Party on the 18th. Food was good.. especially the black pepper crab made by B's daddy!! I ate many many pieces, thanks to B for picking out the ones that were easier to eat, for me! :D Played Wii that i borrowed from my sis this time round.. It was hell funny!! Hahahaha. But by the time most of those who werent staying over left, i was really bored. Tried to sleep but couldnt.. I totally regret not showering man!! Thought i could last till the morning.. But i was feeling so itchy and uncomfortable all over cos i perspired like crazy while playing Wii.. and B's sofa bed was so dirty!! If you have to ask, the highlight of the whole thing was me going home for a long bath in the morning! It was the BESTEST thing ever! haha.

Last week's highlight was Xmas MGM on tues night! Though food was ok only and the exchanging of presents took like an hour(!?), seeing all the CCP people sit together, cheering for our dear IC really made me feel warm and fuzzy all over.. (: It's really amazing, like what Joan said, that we could bond so well within these two weeks.. Will definitely miss those im closer to.. especially my babies!! HEH. :D

Spent 24th, 25th and 26th with B! Woohoo.. we met 3 whole days in a row! loves! Watched Chipmunks on 24th.. walked around 313 again before i head over to granny's.. Those closer to me would have known that my parents and relatives have all found out bout B and I.. after like 1 plus year.. and yea you've got it, they knew all these thru facebook! Had some horrible times with my parents cos of religious issues and all.. Was prepared to get chopped on 24th's Xmas Gathering.. but NO! those who havent seen B before were asking me to show them B's photo.. Mum was really scary that night when people mentioned B, but after seeing how my aunties talked bout us and all, she actually softened. She came over and told me that she just hopes to see B go to church and hopefully he'll be touched by God and become a Christian. Maybe this might be too much for some people.. but as opposed to how she was treating me and B previously, this is really too good to be true! :D Hopefully B will get to visit us during CNY! :D

25th was spent at church! B and i went for 11am service.. After that had Purple Plate with my cell.. and off to PS for some shopping! Didnt get anything except for some hamster bedding, a new wheel (they are getting really faaaat), bath sand and A BOTTLE OF RABBIT PERFUME which could be used for hamsters as well! Hopefully Mango and Pudding wont be so stinky anymore!

On the 26th, B and I went to watch Cirque on Ice at Arina Waterfront with his two little cousins! The tickets were given free to his aunt and that's why we had the opportunity to go! It was really goooood!! Though the place they staged the performance was crappy. I mean, i wont pay 100 over bucks to sit in those kind of seats and use the stinky portable toilets. But the performance made up for all those! At some point in time, the stunts were really breath-taking. It was quite scary in fact.. Having to imagine them falling from so high into the hard ice.. i think they might even die.. Trained to a few places after that just to look for Gift A Name, where B wanted to do the keychains.. Didnt make any in the end.. had KFC for dinner!! :D After that B left me to train home alone :'( *sobs*

One week left and B's going for reservice! TWO freaking weeks. how can i not complain!! :( it would be so weird without him around with me.. after all these months of sticking together.. sighhh.. so guys please book me!! 4th to 15th january! and how people felt that i was dependent before i got attached.. I think im even more dependent now.. this is bad. >.<

2009-12-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

I just did a quiz on my Personality Type on facebook!

The Provider (ESFJ)

E = (more Extroverted than Introverted)
People who are clearly Extroverts are naturally active and social people. They spend lots of time outwardly expressing themselves through conversation, collaboration, or recreation. They draw energy from this sort of interaction and quickly grow restless if they have to spend too much time alone or not engaged in some sort of activity.

S = (more Sensing than Intuitive)
Sensors are sensible and grounded, focusing on the concrete and the here and now. They learn through experience and are cautious with untested ideas. They appreciate tradition, but are open to new ways of doing things if they can see tangible benefits.

F = (more Feeling than Thinking)
Feelers are caring, supportive, and appreciative. They naturally reach out to other people, preferring to cooperate and agree rather than argue over who is right. They are comfortable with emotions, both their own and those of others.

J = (more Judging than Perceiving)
Judgers like to keep track of things so that they're not caught off-guard or unprepared, and for the same reason tend not to leave a decision up in the air or an issue unresolved. While they appreciate flexibility, even a little spontaneity, they're most comfortable when they're in control.

In general, ESFJs are helpful people who place a high value on harmony. Paying close attention to people's needs and wants, they work well with others to complete tasks in a timely and accurate way. ESFJs follow through on their commitments. They like closure and prefer structured, organized situations in which warmth and compassion are shown. They contribute to others by anticipating their day-to-day concerns and handling them with warmth and efficiency. ESFJs are at their best in organizing people to get a job done.

ESFJs in LIFE
ESFJ children want life to be uncomplicated, secure, harmonious, and structured. They are usually responsible, reliable, and cooperative. They thrive in situations in which there is consistency and personal attention. They enjoy the acceptance of others and will work hard to gain that acceptance. ESFJ children are concerned about doing the right things and pleasing their elders.

ESFJs follow the rules and tend to accept them as fair and reasonable. They admire people and teachers who are warm, friendly, and concerned. A nine,year,old ESFJ was mortified when his classmates broke a school rule by writing their names and his in chalk on their red brick schoolhouse. When his teacher continued to believe that he had written his own name on the walls, even though he said that he had not, he was very embarrassed and felt betrayed. To not be believed by someone he liked and admired was especially hard for him because it upset his belief that when one is well behaved and tells the truth, one will be rewarded. Sometimes when the rules or their enforcement are unreasonable, ESFJs may have trouble setting limits and not feeling guilty or betrayed by the system.

ESFJs are concerned about the feelings of others and like to help out when possible. An eleven,year,old ESFJ with a treasured doll collection watched a neighbor's house burn. She knew everything was lost in the fire, including the children's toys. In her compassion, she gave everyone of her beautiful dolls to the two little neighbor girls. It didn't occur to her that this was a great sacrifice; it was just her way of doing something to help in a tragic situation.

ESFJs begin early to assume responsibility for the welfare of others. They believe it is necessary to give as well as to receive and will often volunteer their time and talents in service or, ganizations such as the YWCA and hospital candy striper groups.

ESFJs radiate warmth and fellowship, and generally fit in well with their classmates. They value the traditional things that teenagers do and may be involved in various clubs and teams. Their friends often turn to them because of their "listening ear" and helpful nature. One ESFJ described herself as the peace, maker in her circle of friends. Whenever they had problems, they came to her. She was willing to listen, offer suggestions, and help smooth things over with the rest of the group.

As young adults, ESFJs focus on their relationships and values, which generally have to do with helping others and being with compatible people. They seem to have less difficulty than some other types in making friends and accepting their roles in life.

People play a significant part in every aspect of their lives. If friends decide on a particular college, for example, ESFJs may revise their own college plans in order to be with their friends.
Often the lives of ESFJs follow a traditional pattern. An ESFJ woman went to secretarial school because she knew that, with those skills, she would be able to find employment through which she could help others. In pursuing her studies, she met a young accountant, and they decided to marry. She continued to work and help her husband finish his degree. When his degree was completed and they had saved enough money, they bought a house and started a family. Until her children were of school age, she quit her work and assumed part-time employment. She felt a strong responsibility to personally meet her children's needs. While she was at home with her children, she was very involved in school, scouting, community, and church activities.

ESFJs make their family responsibilities their utmost goal. They like tradition and stability and generally choose to do what is expected of them by others and society.

In adult life, ESFJs take their parent, spouse, employee, or community volunteer roles seriously and are committed to them. They are sensitive barometers to the needs of those around them, sometimes more attuned to others' needs than their own. They gain the respect of others because of their helpfulness, pleasantness, and ability to get things done. They carry out their commitments and are often in charge of events. With their high values for relationships, stability, and loyalty, they may have long tenure in their places of work. ESFJs may misread business relationships as friendships and be disappointed when changes occur and personal contacts are not maintained.

Mature ESFJs often structure both their work and personal lives so that they can meet the needs of others. One ESFJ wanted to teach her children the importance of giving to others. She helped them bake and attractively wrap several kinds of holiday cookies. The ESFJ, along with her children, delivered cookies to their immediate neighborhood. They did this year in and year out, and their neighborhood looked forward to the cookie delivery. The ESFJ felt good that she had started her children in such a beloved neighborhood tradition.

For ESFJs, retirement means continuing to nurture and maintain the relationships that are most important to them. They keep their lives full of activities with people. ESFJs are recognized for doing nice, thoughtful things for others, such as sending flowers and notes, and making follow-up telephone calls. They are likely to schedule regular lunches and leisure activities with their former colleagues from work. If they have grandchildren, they will fill their time by offering to babysit, often at a moment's notice, or by helping in any way that they can. One ESFJ particularly enjoyed going to garage sales. He continually brought back for his grandchildren toys that could not be found in stores. He would take great delight in finding antique toys at these sales. Another ESFJ had a regular bridge group that she attended faithfully. Her life was very full with her relationships with others. When she traveled, she became the social chairperson of the group, seeking out others and including them in the activities. Whatever she could do to make the trips more pleasant, she would do. It made her feel good that others appreciated her efforts.

ESFJs at WORK
At work, ESFJs contribute their ability to cooperate with others and to complete tasks in a timely and accurate way. They respect rules and authority, and handle daily operations efficiently. They tend to be well informed and up,to,date on organizational actions that matter to people. ESFJs do what they can to make sure that personal relationships are running smoothly. Because they pay close attention to people's needs and wants, they are often involved in work activities that meet people's practical, day-to-day desires.

Work Setting
ESFJs prefer a work setting that contains conscientious, cooperative, values-oriented people who work at helping others. They want to be close to the action, working most effectively in settings that are friendly, sensitive to human needs, personal, and appreciative. ESFJs may not fit in well with departments that are highly bottom-line or production oriented. They tend to operate on actual facts and realities, liking things to be organized. Where possible, they make their workspace efficient, yet warm in tone.

Organizing Style
ESFJs want answers to questions such as: who, what, when, and where. They place a special emphasis on "who." They want information and structure because it enables them to quickly help others. They are often models of organization, with a "place for everything and everything in its place." Some ESFJs like the role of organizational "historian" because they remember facts as they relate to people.

ESFJs enjoy providing useful data to those who need it. After being told that someone has lost some piece of information, ESFJs will generally be able to locate it.

ESFJs plan with the needs of others in mind. They are goal oriented and enjoy getting the job done. Their responsiveness, thoroughness, and reliability can be counted on. Even when they lack technical knowledge, this is easily forgiven by others because the ESFJ is so responsive and provides assistance in the depth that others may not offer.

ESFJs prefer that expectations are made clear to them. When the priorities are not straight or are continually changing, ESFJs may feel uncomfortable until there are clear directions as to what they are required to do next.

An ESFJ office manager was particularly proud of the service-oriented, efficient office that she ran. She knew that freeing her boss from daily office matters gave him more time for sales calls. When he prepared to call on potential customers, the ESFJ provided him with background information and copies of previous proposals to similar customers. The telephones were answered promptly and courteously, and all information requests were handled in a personal and thorough fashion. Day-to-day operations such as typing and bookkeeping were delegated to the staff according to a master plan and schedule. Customer billing went out on time, and problems were managed in a firm, yet friendly' fashion. Everything in the office was well organized; however, the office did not appear rigid because of the ESFJ's personable workstyle.

Occupations
To perform well at work, individuals may need to use all of the eight preferences at the appropriate time and when required by the situation. Knowing this, people tend to select occupations that allow them to use the preferences that are most natural to them.

ESFJs prefer occupations that allow them to provide direct and personal, yet practical, help to others. Occupations that call for organization and goal direction appeal to them. They are especially careful not to waste time or resources; to do so would go against their nature.

While ESFJs can and do enter all occupations, some are more appealing to them than others. According to available research, some occupations (in alphabetical order) seem to be especially attractive to ESFJs: childcare worker, dental assistant, elementary school teacher, home economist, nurse, office manager, radiological technologist, receptionist and secretary, religious educator, speech pathologist, and other occupations that allow ESFJs to help others and serve their values directly. These occupations are not meant to be an exhaustive list but serve to illustrate some areas that an ESFJ might enjoy. If your specific occupation or one that you are interested in is not listed here, think instead of its general characteristics and ask yourself how those fit with your type.

ESFJs in LOVE
For the ESFJ , love means warmth and commitment. When ESFJs first fall in love, they show this warmth and concern for their partner in many tangible ways. They will send cards, notes, flowers, special gifts, and other mementos of their affection. If the partner casually mentions a desire for a specific thing, such as a sweater with a sailboat design, the ESFJ will try to find just that thing. Once committed in a relationship, ESFJs tend to stay with it even when there is inconvenience to them, and perhaps longer than may be healthy. They are able to bring out the best in their partners, even though it may mean putting their own needs second.

Because ESFJs are caring individuals, they expect to give and receive in their relationships. Because others may not be as thoughtful as the ESFJ, it is a possible source of disappointment to them if they expect the same awareness and caring on the part of the partner. Being practical and realistic, they may not always like effusive shows of affection and prefer moderation instead. ESFJs may be more loyal to the relationship or to the institution of marriage than to the person. ESFJs may take the end of the relationship as a personal failure.

ESFJs, when scorned, hurt allover and may need to take time to get over the relationship before pursuing a new one. They may too easily and incorrectly blame themselves for the unfavorable outcome and recall instances when perhaps they were not as giving as they might have been. However, ESFJs' standards for giving in a relationship are likely to be above those of some other types. At their worst when scorned, ESFJs can become spiteful and critical of the partner. Because ESFJs are keenly sensitive to others and are tuned in to emotional needs, they really know how to hurt a person in the rare instances when they choose to do so.

SO DO YOU GUYS THINK THIS IS TRUE ABOUT ME? heh. most of the suitable occupations listed there are what i have in mind actually! :D but of cos not home economist la! cant even switch on the gas stove.. :p

2009-12-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

Had two class tests and an assignment due last week! busy busy. trying to study the notes and preparing for the tests.. Attended Lishi's 21st too, on a saturday evening.. And we made this really quick decision to go KBOX the next saturday.. i havent sang for like.. eons..!? The sunday after that i went for another KBOX session with the CCP peeps to celebrate Boss' birthday.. He had to put this tall party hat on and hold onto a girly balloon.. and of course, he refused to.. so not sporting can.. Tsktsk!

Still waiting for ppl to upload pics for Lishi's party, KBOX with Heartbreakers and CCP Outing. Since i've not been tagged in any photo in Facebook, i presume they havent uploaded any? SO NO PICS!

The next few weeks will be quite eventful and of course, hectic! CCP is finally gonna succeed! We found a place called Kids United and will be working with the kids there for our programme. Visited the place on thursday and the kids were really rowdy! Difficulty level in communicating with them might even hit 10times more than teaching the LHPS kids.. ohmytian..

Bash and Pageant was yesterday.. wanted to go with OG but since so few ppl were interested, i didnt go in the end.. Spent the night trying out Adobe Photoshop Elements.. trying to design the CCP tee.. i got really frustrated cos i didnt know how to use the programme and could only try here and there.. sighhh. thanks Guohao and especially my superblynice friend Chua Lerxian, for helping me out!! :D :D :D It's more or less done now, except it has to go thru SRC HQ.. waiting for the quotation email as well.. hopefully everything will be okay and ready by the 16th!

Feel the urge to learn Photoshop.. wonder if i should just try it out on my own or go for a workshop? But im really impatient la.. urghh.

Doing all these stuffs just makes me think of how much more i could have contributed towards Esprimere.. but i guess all these dont matter anymore.. sigh.

OUTDATED PICS!

A DAY AT AJISEN!

Ajisen is prolly one of the places we frequent other than Pasta Mania..

J J J!! :D

act cute!!

ohman my fat face :(

HIS 14TH MONTHSARY PRESENTS!!

domo hp pouch!

domo pencilcase!

DOMO!! :D

Guess how many domos are there in this picture!

Lucky J has a total of FIVE presents this month! Cos i promised him an extra gift if he passed his ippt and he did.. so he had a nice tee from me! Another one was another tee i promised to give him for Glowmetrik! eeeks unfair!!

MACS CHICKEN TEPPANYAKI AND SEAWEED SHAKER FRIES! WOOTS!

J J J!! :D :D

MY PINK RABBIT!! TEEHEE!

Believe it or not, he actually managed to stuff this humongous pink rabbit into my blue bag! I was laughing hysterically all the way from the void deck to my room!! DAMN FUNNY!! and when i got home, i showed this to my sis.. and she pulled the little green rabbit out from the side of her bed! HAHAHAHA. i didnt know my sis has this rabbit toooo!

so cute together right..

HAHAHAHA THIS IS THE CUTEST! :D :D :D

2009-11-15T16:49:00.000+08:00

Past few days were tiring tiring tiring!!

Couldnt sleep the day before the Lianhua Primary School Day Camp cos.. i'm like that. haha when it comes to a new something, i will just be unable to sleep. which is bad. like the day before my first day of work at Citibank, i couldnt sleep too. before exams cant sleep too! =x

Anyway that added on to the tiredness..

First day i teamed with J and Tingxuan, someone we didnt know.. But he really helped to make things easier.. Cos he went for the CCI course, he knew how to engage the kids.. and he didnt take charge and present a one-man show.. he gave both of us plenty of opportunities to talk and teach the kids too! We were the facs for 2 Ruby! They played Hand Entanglement and Taboo.. There were some discrepancies for Taboo.. But i REALLY REALLY REALLY heard that it was CCI Taboo and not the real taboo.. and i jotted it down.. so we did Taboo with actions.. apparently, the other classes played Taboo with words.. but it didnt really matter in the end cos..

On the second day, we played Pictionary with NO actions but only drawings.. and we did Public Speaking too.. Alan Goh was with us on the second day cos Tingxuan went back to NS! haha. And he kept telling the kids that he's Big Brother Alan and that Justin is Mr Justin and im Mdm Liane. whatever~ anyway he's very funny too.. i hope the kids enjoyed his funny antics! haha. he helped out alot too.. i realised i got tired easily.. we had to raise our voices the whole day.. and the kids just couldnt contain their energy.. *shakes head* but there were still a few who were very good.. they listened.. they kept quiet.. they could do their work with ease and they presented their speeches very well.. haha potential Prefects of the school i must say..

Throughout the two days.. i realised how much pressure has been placed on this little ones.. they were divided into 3 different groups.. and on the first day, i led the group that was under the Slower Learning Programme.. some LSM programme.. they showed difficulties in understanding, in listening to instructions and most of the time, they waited for things to happen instead of thinking on their own. And the saddest thing was that they werent given the chance to shine! It's not the teachers' fault also. Cos in a big class of 40, it's natural for them to pick the good ones.. they couldnt possibly take care of all the kids' needs..

There was this little girl called Kah Hien.. she's very weak in her studies.. but Alan gave her a chance to speak in front of the class.. and immediately after that she told her form teacher she wanted to join the Storytelling team! so in a way, Alan gave her the chance to step out and give public speaking a try.. their form teacher was very surprised too and told the class she's very brave and encouraged her..

But all these made me think of how cruel our society is.. i guess all those who have ppl stepping all over their heads all the time.. will never or probably will have very few opportunities to realise their potential.. we have to be very good.. right at the top.. or else, we are nothing. nobody will realise our existence and nobody will care. we will just be hidden in our own little world, forever..

Here are the gifts i received!

Drawing from Glenis! :D

Drawing from Ginger! :D

Okay i show favouritism. But this is from the most shuai, mixed-blood little boy, MICHAEL JORDAN, in the class! He's the class monitor and he's very smart! And he behaves really well! What a good catch! HAHA. i'm gonna frame up the flower and star he cut for me!! okay im kidding.

and guess what!! HE CAN MOONWALK!!

goshhh. im so mesmerized. i wanna bring him home! HAHAHA. this kid really made me an idiot.

presenting to you...

Michael Jordan doing the Michael Jackson move - Moonwalk :D

he wrote his email add on a small slip of paper and gave it to me! YAYS. i didnt force him to give it to me okay!! he wanted my number hor. but i told the teacher we arent supposed to give =p he even came over to me and said "i know you took a video of me!" and went all shyy.. ahhhhh so cuteee my goshhhh.. and when we went to the canteen, he tried to trick me into taking a pic by calling my name.. and he moonwalked twice!! hahahaha. so cute so cuteee!!!

i added him on facebook already but.. HOW COME HE NEVER ADD ME BACK ONE :(

too bad didnt take pic with him!! SO STUPID ME. how come never take!!! arghhhh. zhong sheng de yi han.. HAHA. okay i better stop. cos J got jealous on that day =p

My sis just came back from Europe and she bought a Swatch watch for me from Vienna. I know it's just a swatch watch but the fact that only i have a present (ya my parents also dont have cannn) makes me special.. YES I AM SPECIAL! :D

i wonder if my sis would miss me more or if i would miss her more when she moves out after her wedding in january! >.<

i feel blessed that God gave me this life.. gave me my character.. even though a tad too whiny and princessy at times.. but good enough for other people to treat me so well and make me so happy and loved... all the time (:

2009-11-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

As all can see.. i started procrastinating again and thus i didnt blog for the past week! Actually i did try to.. unfortunately i switched over to the new editor and being an IT idiot, i totally had no idea whatsoever on how to use it.. got fed up.. and decided to delete the post! sheesh im such a dumbo when it comes to IT, my parents always say i should live in the olden times.

Anyway!! i saw CHEN WEILIAN at my busstop a couple of days ago! my dad saw him twice and mentioned it to us before so i believe he lives in the same estate! prolly cos i always had morning classes for the past 2 years, so i didnt see him.. But my lessons this year are all in the early afternoon, so i got to see him.. Not a big deal, but i actually felt superduper guilty for not helping him! I wanted to but i didnt dare =/ And weird enough, he knocked into me but didnt ask me which bus was coming and turned to a malay uncle somewhere further to ask! WHY OH WHY~~ i was so guilty the rest of the day.. i complained to so many people.. and told myself i HAVE TO help him if i see him again..

AND I SAW HIM AT THE BUSSTOP AGAIN TODAY! but this time round there were 2 uncles helping him. and he actually knows which bus is coming already.. the uncle mentioned bout the bus he was taking to the other uncle.. and weilian moved a few steps.. so the uncle told him, " 还没有来！还没有来！" and he replied saying, "我知道! 要来了!" and true enough in like 2mins time, his bus came! wahh is this psychic power or something.. anyway he takes bus 52 too! so i boarded the bus with him.. he knocked into some guy and went to the standing area instead.. so i was telling myself, "HELP HIM HELP HIM!!" but too bad.. another uncle offered him his seat and started chit-chatting with him.. boo! didnt get to help again.. but i feel kinda happy that at least he managed to get up the bus safely and get a seat! was telling yf bout it and he was saying that i missed the opportunity to appear in his next album.. he said that the uncle who offered him a seat will be the one singing a duet with weilian. HAHAHA.

Here's something interesting!

Collon biscuits my sis brought back from Japan! not small pieces in a box but long sticks of them!! Green tea flavour somemore! Yummy :D

hehe little nic in the background!

see how long they are! it's very convenient and more enjoyable this way! :D

MY NEW MOUSE J BOUGHT FOR ME!

looks rather ghostly with those big eyes! But i love its little legs! hehe. my sis says it is the ugliest mouse she has ever seen! nevermind, i like can already! :D

bright blue lights from its eyes! i was asking J if i could turn them off cos the light really make my eyes uncomfortable at times!

Random day dining at Asian Kitchen!

Some ppl told me the food there sucks but it's not that bad la.. variety sucks though! haha.

Mr J Lim.

i hate my chicken to have the slightest tinge of blood! urghh.

beef fried rice.

AND MY CURRENT FAVOURITE PAIR OF EAR STUDS!! RIBBONS!! I LOVE RIBBONS!! :D

wanna get another pair lor..

Random picture of Nic boy sunbathing this morning! (:

AND NIC SINGING AGAIN!! my sis says i am really irritating.. sorry im but like that :D

2009-11-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

FRIGHT NIGHT 2009!

Wahh i was totally scared out of my wits! sighhh. i actually teared silently during the walk indoors.. twice.

First time was the first room.. didnt know what to expect and was jittery all over.. Clem was leading the way and J guarding the back.. the 3 of us girls (Kel, Bao and I) were sandwiched in the middle but it didnt help much la. There was this ghost which/who (haha!) grabbed Bao's hand from the back. She was shocked but she didnt make any noise. So brave la. And this idiotic ghost had to come to the other side. I was trying to look out for the candle we were suppose to find and all of a sudden, she had her face so close to mine, staring at me with those killer eyes, i totally screamed my lungs off!!!

Second time we were walking out of the room already.. feeling accomplished and relieved that we finished that room.. a male ghost suddenly grabbed me from the back so hard la! I screamed and went "YOU IDIOT LAAAA".. wah lau! somemore i wasnt the last one.. and he had to aim for me.. J scolded me and asked me not to scold him somemore.. what is this!! scared cannot ah..

The outdoor trail wasnt so scary.. But the jungle was pitch dark.. that alone was scary enough.. I think if we saw "things", they might be real! haha. luckily we didnt! But there were ghosts running towards us damn fast from the back to scare us.. and one hid somewhere and appeared suddenly.. another threw things out from nowhere.. It was really really dark.. and it was already 2 or 3am? J yanked my right arm so hard twice, that i pulled one of my veins! Damn pain! The route was really rocky and dangerous.. plus it rained before that.. it was muddy too.. But we were considered lucky.. After finishing both trails, it started to rain.. And Iggy's team was caught in the heavy downpour, drenched from top to toe..

PEEKTURES NOW!

our team :D

singing club girls :D

CCP! :D

singing club! :D

tired J and me! :D

And now for the OUTDATED PICS..

CCSU colleagues.. Im missing those times.. Missing Erna and Cheryl especially.. One in KL, the other in UK.. and im here in singapore...

me, erna, kelvin, luther our sup!

cheryl, liane, erna! :D

cheryl, liane, erna, kelvin!

feasting at swensens!

us again!

mad little girl.

cheryl and me!

me and Erna!

yea us! :D

Bao, Yoke Ching (this very very very superbly nice perm staff), Cheryl, me, Erna!

Meeting Erna on her last day in Singapore... :(

Our last day or work...

loves..

2009-10-30T00:56:00.000+08:00

my life's filled with so many activities at the moment! filled to the brim! heh.

21st birthday parties EVERY week! missed a few already.. :( feel so bad.. but there were a few i had no one close to go with.. i feel blessed sometimes to have so many individual close friendships.. but when it comes to birthday parties, it's really difficult for me to attend alone.. cos im quite zi bi at times.. and i take quite sometime to warm up..

tuition twice a week for my dear p2 kid! she's practically driving me crazy every single session.. sometimes i really dread tutoring her.. but it really warms my heart to see the big smile on her face whenever she sees me! but that's all. the next two hours will be a torture for me.. she loves to argue with me.. and she likes to say "my teacher say.." or else "my mother say.." ARGH. her exam's this coming monday.. seriously i have no idea whether or not she will be able to even pass.. i've been communicating with her in English for the past 4 months cos she doesnt even understand a basic sentence in Mandarin.. thinking of borrowing some nursery Chinese storybooks for her after her exams.......

piano lessons! apparently i have been paying Level 1 fees after completing my Level 1 and 2.. cos the receptionist made a mistake! haha so in a way, i zhuan dao! Level 3 now.. will prolly take another 2 months plus to complete the whole Pop Piano course... thinking of taking up Lyrics Writing course after that.. but my parents kinda want me to continue my classical.. ahhhh but im kinda lazy to practise already.......

i havent been attending cell/service dutifully all cos of my super many birthday parties! went to church twice this month.. and im glad i can still fit in rather comfortably.. but it seems kinda hard for me to return for good.. Fright Night TOMORROW, which will last till saturday morning.. and after that i will have another 21st birthday party to attend~ *faints* and then the following week will be Welfare Chalet.. another weekend gone...... and then!! the following following week end will be Lishi's 21st...... goshhh.

CCP meetings almost every week.. sighs i still cannot contribute alot when my usual kakis arent with me! hmph. really hope our programme will be a success.. if not the 3h long meetings we have every week would have gone to waste...

we havent gone out on a proper date ever since school started! :'( how sad la. we only get to meet for dinners.. and most of the time, our dinners are with lots of people! hmphh. which explains my "high maintenance" for the past 2 weeks... not my fault okayyy... i need time to adjust to this new routine.....

FRIGHT NIGHT TOMORROW!!

i really hope i wont freak out too much.. excos please dont zen3 J too much......

2009-10-23T20:03:00.000+08:00

And so it seems..

Im just too lazy to set up another blog after all.. I do feel like adding some pics and customisations to my blog.. But no time and too nua to do so.. Anybody willing to help me with a nice customised banner at the top?

Im back here after a 3-month long hiatus..

I don't know how i should be feeling now.. It's a mixture.. A confused state.. The number of fights/quarrels/bickers we had this month seem to add up to even more than the total number of the same set of things in the six months. Not sure if the problem lies with myself anymore.. What should i do now? what can i do? It's so difficult sometimes......

so near yet so far..

2009-07-26T18:57:00.000+08:00

ARGH WHY IS MY BLOGGER LIKE THAT!?

i cant blog! i have a couple of pics to upload and all.. but all my tabs are gone!! anyone has any idea how to solve this problem??

2009-06-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

Super long since i've updated anything. Lots of things happened. Some things are just rather personal and i don't think i wanna publish them here. My mood's like a roller coaster, going up and down.

i've been procrastinating alot ever since exams ended. haven't gone back for my pop piano lessons. only started tidying part of my room even though it's been like a week? only started reading like one chapter of a book i want myself to reread. plans to run have been postponed to the coming week. havent planned which days to go out with ppl i wanna meet and the list goes on...

a few things i did was to get a haircut (like finally!!).. and im kinda happy with my new haircut :D and.. to get a pair of new specs! GUESS WHAT? i've gotten myself a pair of FIERY HOT RED specs!! okay im not sure if i made the right decision. but i've already paid for it so im gonna step out of my comfort zone and wear it! will post some pics (if i dare to) next week when it's due for collection!

and now im like in a dilemma. i have lots of things to do but i wanna work as well. will be gg down to the agency this week.. if i get a job by next week, it'll mean i only have this week left.. then again, if everybody else is working, i might as well work.. =/

love this song.. and the lyrics.. beautiful (:

四目交接的时候不要停留太久
适可而止的问候关心不能太过
好奇也别去探索妒嫉只能深锁
如果忍不住寂寞也不能对你说

啊好朋友啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默不想让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
相信我们走到另一个境界
搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言
甚麽会多一些甚麽会少一些

就让别人去猜测我们清白的很
就让自己去承受那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友能不能有要求
如果会发生甚麽也是我想太多

啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口微笑中藏著难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑
甚麽会被消灭甚麽才会复原

那是我的底线继续将你暗恋

2009-05-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

What is your dating style?

Your Dating Style:
Casual Dating

You are all about taking things as they come, you may just date someone once or it could turn into a life long thing. You just enjoy the mystery of it all.

okays i wonder who's gonna scold me. haha. hey, but it's quite true to some extent. i don't really think bout the future. like what i told some friends, i shall see how things go. we don't really know what's gonna happen in future right. =p

2009-05-18T11:51:00.001+08:00

3 down, 1 to go! And im not exactly happy about this. seriously, it's gonna be the worst year ever! im prepared to get really really cui results. and just like what i told my og peeps, i don't know whether i'll be happy if i scrape through my papers or if i fail them and get to retake them and hope for better grades. but that would mean more money and another year at school. whatever it is, it's not in my hands anymore. i just gotta commit the papers into His hands and concentrate on the one last paper. :(

had the most terrible cramps of all in the afternoon, yesterday.. it's the first time i had to take a double dosage of the painkillers. and seriously, lying down did not help at all. i totally just rolled into a ball and positioned myself at the corner of my bed, whining and crying. and my mum was so shocked! in the end she made me some hot tea. i think it was boiling hot and i actually scalded my tongue but who cares! it made me feel alot better. i drank the whole cup.. and immediately, went to the bathroom and puked whatever that was in my tummy. =/ fortunately the pills took effect after sometime (though i believe part of it has already been flushed away!), and i went to sleep...... wahh but come to think of it, if cramps were already this bad.. how will giving birth be like? *ouuuccchh* maybe it's a better idea for guys to take up the responsibility of giving birth. i can go NS! bleah.

and after talking to wiggly, pei, dd, dan and a few others.. i realised.. IM PERFECTLY NORMAL! :D gee how nice! (: and according to dan, i should be FURIOUS. but i wasnt. i was sad. damn!! i should have been furious!! i shall be furious now now NOW!! i shall give him the murderous stare from now on! >.< ...so im actually just a stupid blockhead with no self-confidence =/ and and and i hereby declare RV ppl are the most normalest of all! haha. i never fail to feel comfortable talking to them. yayy (:

and and and i just found out something else. no liane, you are NOT gonna keep turning back, feeling nostalgic and thinking bout the good ol' days. you've got to move on. move ahead. move FORWARD. stop turning back!! you had the guts to reject. so you should have the guts to put things down and move on!! grrrr.. im totally irritated with myself sometimes..

oh yea, which reminds me, one of the days last week.. guess it was before my marketing paper (yucks), 傻蛋 actually made a call to 933 during cq's yeayeayea.. haha it was hilarious.. i shall not mention what he called me on air.. i will NEVER EVER respond to that kinda name.. it's SO NOT ME! >.< color="#993399">(: (: (: okay before i start thinking bout my papers again. eh but urgghhhhhhh =/

and a few days ago, i bawled till i thought i was gonna get an asthma attack. till i woke up with super swollen eyes which only returned to their normal size (small enough alr) the next day.. i cannot say i was totally wronged by some ppl. yet, i believe the bulk of the problem lies with them. cos they were not even nearby but they ASSUMED that they heard and understood everything. im not sure how im gonna settle this.. i've been told by those i talked to, to give in.. but why is it always me? and putting the gender issue aside, i just hope they actually reflected/will reflect bout things and not insist that they are right. and seriously, to learn how not to judge people with no concrete evidence.. but anyway, thank you GH for talking to me! (:

yea im gonna study my hrm now.. it's interesting! it's fun! it's enjoyable! =s

2009-04-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

扭开收音机，听到的第一首歌，竟然是这一首...

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着

冰上的世界
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变

如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得

记得你要我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

凌晨三点，准备睡时，933播起了 [[爱情不能做比较]]...

有那么巧吗...

-

why am i so so so dead this year.. why must mm and marketing be tgt.. AHHHH. :'(

2009-04-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

i found this on ehow.com..

How to Recognize Signs of a Shopping Addiction

1. A major warning sign of a shopping obsession is when the shopper hides their purchases or attempts to cover up how much they have really spent when shopping. They may be embarrassed by frequent purchases but are still unwilling to give up on their obsession. (tick)

2. While many people find shopping helps to brighten their mood, obsessive shoppers take this to an extreme. They use shopping as a cure to depression, anxiety, or simply to get that “high” from buying things.

3. Watch for a large number of items that go untouched after being purchased. That may be shoes and clothes that aren’t worn, books that aren’t read, items unused. Obsessive shoppers often buy things without really needing them and so they go untouched. (taking only baby steps in wearing the clothes i bought so.. (tick))

4. They may also spend money they don’t have. Watch for extremely high credit card bills and bounced checks.

5. Obsessive shoppers may also attempt to hide the bills and receipts from their family because of the huge amounts of money spent on needless purchases. (hiding clothes in my case so.. (tick))

6. Shopping several times a week or every day. While occasional shopping is certainly normal, watch for daily shopping trips where something is bought every time. (tick)

7. Online shopping. With the advent of ebay, overstock.com, and other online retailers, shopping addiction is also taking place without the shopper ever stepping foot in a store. They secretly make many online purchases and are constantly surfing online stores. (this last sentence doesnt quite apply. It's difficult to SECRETLY make many online purchases cos the parcels are sent to my house. Therefore, Wiggly's mailbox comes into the rescue!(tick x100))

-

im feeling much better! after talking to a few ppl, including the main culprit of my sadness. now isnt the time to think bout such stuff anyway.. not when i have ALOT left to study.. ALOT left untouched. thanks ppl! (: *BIG HUG* =p

-

big girls don't cry :*)
not after knowing you'll always be there..

2009-04-25T12:03:00.000+08:00

i don't really know how pain can be measured.

but the pain in The Heart will never match up to how you felt, i guess.

i tried to deceive myself into believing this was just a facade.

a facade so as to let me get back.

but no, it isnt.

the truth unfolds.

reality hits.

and what's left behind,

is just a smile behind tears,

and an act of nonchalance.

.
.
.

Dear Lord,

please help me get out of this. You are the only one i can confide in now. Please...

.
.
.

I'll never bug you for it again.

Just so my sense of anticipation can be prolonged..

.
.
.

whatever is happening...

what's wrong with me...

='(

2009-04-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

车子里收音机空气中还飘着雨
在这个深夜里你应该在他那里
有多久没再遇见你
房里没了你的气息
而我终于扔掉了你给我的所有东西

我可以填满了生活里每寸空隙
我知道不容易但我仍试着继续
听说你比从前开心
我还能有怎样的情绪
除了祝福我不想再多说一句

他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂野的拥抱
这回忆他怎么给的到

他多好和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道爱情不能做比较

就算是今天换一个人依靠
明天谁又比谁好
爱看不到听不到怎么做比较

别再说他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂野的拥抱
这回忆他怎么给的到

他多好和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道爱情不能做比较

希望你知道爱情不能做比较

<3

同样一首歌，
不同时间，
不同感受...

想起了不同的人... ...

我好自私！但自私的人也有权利难过对吧？:( :( :(

我真是一tuo大便！>.<

一tuo又自私又笨蛋的大便！

嘴硬心软！

口是心非！:'( :'( :'(

送上... ...

满满的祝福... ...

<3

2009-04-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God

Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

-

lovely song we sang at church this evening..

i just dont understand why im feeling this way.. losing focus on You..

2009-04-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

I cannot believe i actually caught a SILVERFISH in my room. Im seriously disgusted by it. Found it on top of my box of new clothes yesterday! (do note that the point is the silverfish and not the box of new clothes!) saw something whitish moving quite fast.. so i thought to myself it must be a speck of dust or something but TO MY HORROR, this white thing was WIGGLING.. that's the most disgusting thing i've found in my room, other than pieces of my burnt scalp. =p and so i googled on it and found out that silverfishes not only eat books, cardboard and stuff like that, they eat cotton and rayon too! rayon! that's my favourite clothing material! RAWR.

i cannot wait to declutter my room in June! been living in this room for 10years and there are loads to declutter! i still have some of my pri sch/sec sch stuff.. and of cos my jc stuff.. and i actually still have some toys around.. i wanna clear my unwanted bags, clothes.. throw my old notes away.. so that there's space for new stuff.. i probably need a new bookshelf or something.. for my Seventeen magazines.. i want a new wardrobe if possible.. cos there's no more space for new clothes.. which explains why they are in the box.. which makes me think of.. THAT DECEASED SILVERFISH'S SISTERS AND BROTHERS!!! i can only pray that they dont eat up my clothes.. they can eat up my ikea box for all i care.. but not my clothes!!

Anyways, after i killed it, i've been feeling itchy all over. ARGHH. and there have also been some flea-lookalike thingy in my room.. killed a few over these few weeks already.. i hope they are not from Nicky.. cos he has been sleeping on my bed when my mum's not at home..

i always have a list of things to do after exams.. clear room, take part in some flea or something to sell my stuff.. probably try my hands on some small business.. and also, work to cover my expenses!! yea may money start rolling in!!

I CANT WAIT TO SLEEP IN A NICER AND CLEANER ROOM!

and i will try to gain permission from my parents to let you come here and be my slave for 2 days k! haha! =p

and now it's like chiong-ing time.. sighs my laziness has really caused me alot.. seriously, it's always last minute when i feel like doing well.. but somehow it seems too late.. dont even have time to finish my notes, let alone do sufficient revision before the papers.. if only im half as hardworking as Irene...... sighs. i really must thank God for last year.. putting in very meagre effort but still doing quite alright or even better than others who did put in much more effort.. let's just say i cannot see my first class at all alr.. unless i get 2 this year and 3 next year.. but HOW. =.= guess i can only aim for second upper now.. =/

ALL UOL PEEPS ESPECIALLY MY FAVOURITE BUNCH OF PPL, JIAYOU!!

2009-04-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

总在我家巷口和你分手
彷佛偶像剧一样
觉得我们就要发生些什么

总在回家时候不知所措
想再打电话给你
可是再见刚刚才说过

有一种想要拥抱你的冲动
想静静看着你的笑容
让你藏在怀中
直到我每天的尽头

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨

因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
像夜的朦拢你的深情难懂
我的世界因为你而不同

因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
像风的自由你的深情难留
你的背影是我最美丽的所有

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how did i ever fall so deep for you..

i love you..

to bits..

<3

:*)

2009-02-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

let's see.. what have i been doing...

hmm the only occasion after my birthday was valentine's day.. ohh not to forget sending mikey off.. *sobs* and going out with Qm and Hm.. other than doing all these.. i've been studying (YES!! IM FINALLY SCARED!! IM HAPPY ACTUALLY, THAT I FEEL THE STRESS!! but prelims starts tmr.. =.=) and of course, ONLINE SHOPPING~ hmm i was once not so crazy already.. but now im back to the crazy mode.. how i wish i have my own mailbox.. bleah. the amount in my bank is depleting though.. =/ anyways, i shall collect enough pics and post them all in a shot.. im too lazy~

yupyup been trying my best to help myself get over my self-consciousness by wearing more shorts.. okay i know i dont look good but.. heck. im into collecting shorts and hoodies now~ wheeee~ gone were the days of collecting jeans (different shades of blue and grey somemore =x) and cardigans.. but the jeans will come into handy soon.. with prelims and finals coming up.. i dont wanna freeze myself to death at Expo.. and im still MADLY IN LOVE with checked, flowery and striped stuff!! im really gonna do sthg to the LARGE AMOUNT of clothes i have at home.. wait till june.. i have my ways and means.. *winks to Wiggly* cant wait to earn back all the money during hols (which also means spending more again)..

back to HRM.. a subject that's interesting to study.. but not easy to score.. but still, sthg interesting to me is hard to come by...

2009-02-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

okay, Jer and GH, pls scroll to the bottom.

我二十一岁了！ :D :D :D

thanks to the following for sending me birthday smses!
Justin
Sis
Mum
Dad
Chiaxuan
Matt Kwan
Jerome
Sinyee
Pris
Rachel
Chinyee
Lijia
Qimin
Nest
Qihao-the-hjl-concert-guy
Peiwen
Eileen
Huimin
Peiyin
Suyee
Deduan
Fukang
Jasmin
Guohao
Marcus Hong
Aunt Chris
Yongxiang
Nigel
Youhan
Xiurong
Yanyun
Abby
Lishi
Qiting
Sharon Leong
Camellia
Linshan
Yingfeng
Aunt Hwa
Gary
Christine
Seokhwee
Susanna
Eric kor
Hoyang
Lerxian
Aunt Esther
Fifi
Daniel
Grace Ng
Bowei
Sitong
Liyan
Lucas
Mingrong
Weiquan
Shuhui
Soonhock
Yongfa
Weekok
Weizhe
Keith
Dorcas
Huimin (OG8)
Jiajun
Kahhoe
Adeline
Pearlyn
Xiumin
Changhong
Weecheng
Liangying

:D

thanks to the following for writing on my FB wall!
Joey
Shuyi
Zhenling
Minshun
Edelyn
Colin
Marcus Mar
Edwin
Huiqi
MattChen
Baoxuan
Meizhen
Sooyan
Bowei
Deduan
Soonhock
Yongxue
Xiurong
Peishan
Yiyan
Fifi
Lishi
Tai Khoon
KwangYing
Linglong
Jiade
Yixiang
Yuqian
Tab
Marcus Tan
Soohuey
MattPan
Audris
Clement
Sister
Peng Guan
Tingwei
Marcus Lim
Joseph
Zongxi
Jiahan
Adeline
Beeying

:D

and LAST BUT NOT LEAST, BIG THANKS to those who came for the party!! (:
Shuhui Soonhock Daniel Mavis Edwin Weihui Zhenling Junjie Zhiqi Eugene Zhoupeng Qimin Huimin Rachel Lucas Zenwea Lijia Lerxian Sinyee Jaslyn YuanIng Yuqian Sooyan Sharon Deduan MattKwan Fukang Camellia Pei Mikey Dorcas Keith Seokhwee Jasmin Cheryl Sitong Tai An Xiurong Alan Baoxuan Chinyee Guohao Weekok Jerome Lynette Susanna Qiling Gary Chiaxuan Tess Weijing Tingwei Alicia Simin Christine Linshan Lishi Weiquan Liyan Pris Greg Clemen Waishin Meizhen Linglong Pea Abby Jiahan Ah Heng Tinghui Michelle Zhencong Zongxi Weiliang Kelly Bowei Ben Desmond Sophia Theresa Yushu Selina Louis Kianseng Nora Jiahui Irene Yongfa Jeff Krystal Grace Ng Mingxia Yande Beth Isaac Rachel Kim and my family and relatives (((:

and for all the fabulous gifts!! and really feel kinda ps to those who spent damn alot (J, Sis, Lerxian..) and those who put in alot of effort (Matt..).. THANKS SO MUCH!! :D

Special thanks to:
Rachel - for helping me ALOT for the whole party
Bao, CY, DD -for coming early to help out with deco
ZL - for helping me with the tags
Gary - for the photos!!
Yongfa, Jeff - for going to the trouble of setting up the ktv system
Parents - for forking out the $$ and entertaining my guests
JLDS - for doing the banner, helping around, playing with my cousins..... and for being brave! (:
JER, GH, GREG - for destroying all the deco

<3 <3 <3

2009-01-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

woah it's been a whole two weeks!

WARNING: LONG WORDY ENTRY BELOW

on 23rd Dec, hu8t disney had an OG Christmas Party at Hoyang's! and i organised it! =p anyways, i believe strongly that they had alot of fun playing Charades, the game that Mr J and i prepared beforehand. and im glad they liked the little plastic utensils with their names on it, that we did! :D they are sooo cute and colourful la. too bad i didnt remember to keep a set for ourselves. anyway, it would have been better if i've got the photos. but Bao hasnt uploaded them so i cant post pictures! so let's wait!

supposed to go for cell's Retro Christmas Party at Kevin's on 26th. but i was PMS-ing so didnt go. so siiian la. missed out on a mega party! :(

28th my family had our own Christmas Party at ahma's house! but it was slightly different this year. my aunt invited my distant relatives (whom i only see once a year during CNY) and showed a video to them, in conjunction with the "Matthew and Friends" outreach thingy. i spent most of my time talking to the older cousins who used to be younger. hahahaha i know this is crap. but seriously, the boys became alot more mature at Sec3 and 4. i feel funny talking to them. haha. and i was running after this little boy who's my father's cousin kid? not sure. but he wanted to see the dog next door. and everytime i opened the gate for him to go in, he chickened out. and he kept saying, “我怕哟，我怕哟！” hahaha funny little thing. and another little girl was throwing those bread crumbs she supposedly should give to the dog, at ME! and everytime i screamed, she giggled. bleah. =/

30th there wasnt any singing lesson because they are all still at KL! i heard that they spent ALOT of money on clothes! IM SO JEALOUS! AHHHH. dd, cy and baobao must show me your buys!!! anyway, we watched The Kite Runner and Juno on his laptop and at night, i joined his friends and him at Chomp Chomp (is it spelt like that?). It was really smoky there! i didnt get to eat my bandung tauhuey with pearls cos we went off to another place for dessert. and they took like ONE FREAKING HOUR to prepare our dessert! RAWR. what bad service.

yesterday (31st), i went Suntec with the same group of his friends and him for some Japanese food. it's not cheap la. aiyoh. then we walked to the Fullerton area and i seriously had great difficulty breathing. there were sooo many people!! we didnt manage to get to the place we initially wanted to go to catch the fireworks.. fortunately, we still managed to get a great view of the fireworks at the place we were stuck at! and it was really beautiful~ magnificent~ especially at the last part.. niceeee~ :D :D :D

oh yea and i fell down the stairs TWICE cos of my worn out black sandals!! i cannot believe it! once at the countdown area and second time at the overhead bridge near my house! so embarrassing! :( fortunately, im not injured or anything. just super shocked both times. =S

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yupps and ive been trying to pack my room these few days. cos CNY's coming and i really wanna clear my stuffs up so that i can start studying! it's JANUARY already! seriously, i dont understand how i've accumulated so many things for the past 10years i live here. and my room is really in a huge mess! firstly there are soooo many things on my dressing table! all kinds of lotion for body, face, hair.. and i dont even use them! hehe too lazy! bottles of perfume.. hair ties.. earrings.. necklaces.. and these are the ones i usually use.. inside the drawer i still have TONNES of them!! and i have other random things also.. tamagotchi, some tarepanda coinbank, keychains etc. and next, my study table! my side of it is filled with all sorts of miscellaneous items.. keychains, handphone accessories, some toys etc. sheesh i should have given them away for Christmas! hahahaha. and my cd albums!! i already i a huge box of them and on top of the box there are more albums! and there's another stack on my study table! *faints* and my floor's cluttered with all my files and study guides! and under the study table are my online buys! hehehehe. i just packed them neatly into my big box bought from Ikea! lotsa new clothes and more coming! =/

and my mum just took away some of my soft toys! she's giving them to the Salvation Army. *sobs* my huge pink hippo from the yangqin ppl for my bday when i was sec4! my huge hamburger from elsa for my bday in sec3! my gigantic winnie the pooh from my sis - a present for my good PSLE results (my greatest achievement in my 20 years of life ahahahaha)! and lastly my huge hamtaro given by zp for my bday in sec1! im not sure what other toys she's gonna throw away.. i still have one other winnie the pooh, one gigantic dog bone, one gigantic tweety bird and one gigantic bear/dog.. and these are only my BIG soft toys.. i still have tonnes of smaller softtoys in my wardrobe.

okay im tired of typing such a long entry. and btw, i just printed 21 sets of stuff from the portal. Marketing, HRM and POA stuffs. blame myself for being lazy!

it's year 2009! another new year! i must learn to be more independent this year! and.. IT'S STUDY TIME!! :( :( :(

2008-12-19T14:17:00.000+08:00

im totally disgusted with the bunch of you, especially YOU! seriously, i was just being polite to not flare up in front of the instructor. but your freaking attitude is just pissing me off! and dont try to act as if nothing has happened after that by coming over to talk to us. you should spend more time reflecting on your own attitude instead.

and maybe it's time to reflect on why the number of ppl coming for lessons are getting fewer..

i cant wait for club activities to end. i know im not supposed to be saying all these. but IM SUPER GLAD. one more month. just one more month. and i dont have to see all the people i dont wish to see.

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keep me busy from 19th to 21st!! date me date me!! :D 23rd dec please come quickly.. =(

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and i'll be keeping you in my prayers.. <3

2008-12-10T14:54:00.000+08:00

POOF! how long has it been? haha. seems like ages since i've last blogged! btw, PEI! i said i will blog at the Esprimere blog, not here! go check out the Esprimere blog! =p

Anyway. nthg much has changed i guess. just that within a month, i've been sick twice, and still is. it seems to be worse this time round.. not getting any better after a week. started with sore throat and flu.. then fever.. and now, cough.. feel so clogged up la. cant even hear properly. i always have this problem of blocked ears whenever i get sick. sighs. and i even lost my voice partially for the past 2 days.. super sexy voice la. haha.

anyway, even though im sick, i still met up with the Heartbreakers on 071208 cos it was planned like 3 weeks ago. seriously, i felt super sick. but i had to go since it's quite hard to have all 6 of us free on a single day.. yup so all things went well, except that we couldnt go KBox cos i was sick (sorry girls!) and we met with a super chao ah lian salesgirl at Blossomz at the Cine Branch. haha i wonder if i'll get sued by them by saying this? but seriously, she's the WORST salesgirl i've ever seen in my life. we should really salute her, seriously. she actually scolded us for not buying anything!! WAHHH. BEST. she said sthg like, "orh 所以你们一群人在这里 try 这么久, then 什么都不要买啦？ok LOR!" what the!? we are the customers and we are the ones forking out the money! she's just a salesgirl and it's her job to entertain us! moreover, she's getting paid!! given this type of attitude, she should just move on and get out of the service sector!! and the worst part is that 5 of us stood there stupidly and just listened to her (dd was outside). and we only got all pissed off when we went out. AHHHH.. this always happens!! *faints* im now still thinking if i should get my sis to write a complain letter with her powderful english! IN CONCLUSION, we should spend more money on online shopping to avoid unnecessary unhappiness with salespersons. HAHAHAHA =P

im really really broke from all the online shopping. SAVE ME PLEASE! im addicted! :(

anyway, 2 of our neoprints! big-faced ones! we were all in dresses (except for dd who wore skirt)! haha i initiated the idea of Dress Day and they were more excited than i was.. =.=

Me, Lishi, Peiyin, Deduan, Baoxuan, Chinyee! (clockwise!)

the next day i walked the whole town with Sinyee to get his Christmas present. and i believed that got my sicker. cos it was raining and it was super cold! i was already having difficulty breathing and the cold, strong wind made me feel even worse! sighs. just incase he doesnt read this, can someone tell him? HAHAHA. anyway, i managed to get what i wanted to buy.. 'cept for the fact that im not too sure if he'll like it. i can only find out on the 25th! hehe and i managed to do abit of shopping for myself.. im soooo dead la. haiyohhh! =/

yup so everything pretty much the same.. school, singing, pop piano, church.. alot of conflicts, miscommunication and discrepancies for the exco side.. somehow, im sick and tired of getting guilty or even, just thinking bout club stuff.. just very glad that i have the 3 of them by my side.. that they understand what im going thru.. that they are on my side.. Sorry girls for not going for the KL Trip.. the whole decision-making process was really torturing.. i hope i wont regret my decision! Enjoy the trip yea (:

Till then! :D

2008-11-14T13:35:00.001+08:00

can i don't update on Genting Trip? i'll probably post some pics soon la. but i'm too lazy to do that now =p

i just heard of something recently.. bout him knowing.. you know, i'm often in a state of dilemma. at times, i feel that i'm ready to announce to the whole world bout it.. but when i start hearing things and stuff.. i really don't feel like it anymore.. let's just say i'm trying to use this to cover up my mistakes i guess? somehow, it'll help to lessen my guilt towards him.. *shrugs* i think i feel the strongest sense of guilt towards him cos.. of the time he wasted.. the efforts down the drain.. actually it's the TIME. to me, time is everything. the right timing and all. it was important to me, it is now and it will always be. maybe it's also because, the rest of them have/had found their other halves.. and i feel that everything's no longer in my hands.. and that there's no need to feel responsible towards them anymore.. but not for him.. a good guy like him shouldn't have wasted time on me..

so right now when i'm feeling guilty towards you, i'm starting to feel guilty towards him as well.

..and so i'll continue to indulge in the past..

2008-11-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

starstarII's album is out! Actually.. he's really quite lucky.. somemore, he's signed under Warner..

promotion video! nice! (:

靖伦's 月光 mv！

Live Version! (:

2008-10-25T12:33:00.000+08:00

went Ocean Butterflies yesterday to sign up for Pop Piano and saw Junyang! ahh but he 发福 le.. so not shuai! ): anyway, with pop piano lessons starting from next week onwards, im gonna be busier! school, singing lessons, src stuff (IF there are meetings. seems like there are only outings now), pop piano lessons, cell, service... was contemplating whether or not to give chinese tuition.. but seems like i dont even have the time to study! sighs. but i need money! hahaha. to cover my expenses. that is.

watched Butterfly Lovers and 20th Century Boys on 201008! haha. and took Singapore Flyers~ ahem it was a bad experience. someone will know why =p but thanks alot, really. (:

on tues, watched some peeps from Esprimere perform for Lunchtime Performance! the juniors are really good, seriously. i was still busy covering my eyes when i had to do eye contact with Partner last year, when singing a duet. sighs. what is this! haha but seriously, they rawk. great performances, i must say!

my favourite!

and wendy's..

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初次见面就占据我心中

部署星空只为了你等候

每个角落擦肩而过被缘分捉弄

突然相遇在转角的街头

抬头感动我只想对你说

快乐难过不能错过对你的承诺

我不太浪漫你说很习惯

我的肩膀给你很多安全感

握紧你的手用全力向天空轻轻呐喊

我会很爱很爱你一百个世纪

很爱很爱你没人能代替

未来旅行 Walkman记录着爱情

我的心永远不变

我会很爱很爱你黑夜到黎明

很爱很爱你四季不休息

打开Walkman 随时就能听见你

Feel My Heart 我最爱最爱的你

突然相遇在转角的街头

抬头感动我只想对你说

快乐难过不能错过对你的承诺

我不太浪漫你说很习惯

我的肩膀给你很多安全感

握紧你的手用全力向天空轻轻呐喊

我会很爱你一百个世纪

很爱很爱你没人能代替

未来旅行 Walkman记录着爱情

我的心永远不变

我会很爱你黑夜到黎明

很爱很爱你四季不休息

打开Walkman 随时就能听见你

Feel My Heart 我最爱最爱的你

我会很爱你一百个世纪

很爱很爱你没人能代替

未来旅行 Walkman记录着爱情

我的心永远不变

我会很爱你用我的生命

很爱很爱你你给我勇气

快乐寂寞走到幸福那一头

Feel My Heart 我最爱最爱的你

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是不是巧合，我也不清楚。有好歌，就该分享！=p

2008-10-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

haha. THANKS AH, xr, jer and gh..

okay! i shall update briefly on what i've been doing.. basically life has been spent going to school, having singing lessons, having my LAST two piano lessons and going out.. im really quite worried bout my studies now la. it's been a month and i still havent gotten into the 'study-consistently-and-life-will-be-better' mode.. i TRIED studying.. im serious! TRIED a few times even.. but i kept day-dreaming la. so most of the time i only managed to accomplish less than half of what i intended to do.. why is studying so difficult nowadays.. i used to enjoy studying.. used to, though.. that's the point.. sighs~

watched 4 movies recently.. Boys over Flowers, Mamma Mia, Wall E.. and yesterday, i watched Lotus 12 with the CIP Local comm from SRC.. i mean, it was meant to be a CIP thing.. i did try to assist 3 ahmas while they were walking.. and i got to watch the show for free! haha. the show's not bad, seriously.. but tragic.. aiyahh life seems kinda pointless after watching it.. ): Anyway! Wall E is so damn cute can? hahaha. i like!! :D

went for lunch with Jas, Beth and Dorcas before service last saturday too.. we did some shopping at Bugis Street after Dorcas left.. and Jas and Beth both got themselves a bag each.. *jealous* saw a number of things i would have taken a second glance at, if not for the limited time we had la. =.=

had my first Children's Camp comm meeting yesterday.. had 2 Singing Club Exco meetings in the past 3 weeks.. erm and that's abt it? will be going to Escape Theme Park with the excos this sunday!! wheeee~ i hope it'll be fun.. though many ppl said that the rides there are rather limited and boring? believe it or not, i've never gone to Escape Theme Park before even though it's been there for like how many years!? haha. will be having our second and final round of orientation for the new freshies the following weekend. NO FLOUR PLS. yup.. lots of activities and events~ i hope i'll still have time for all my other commitments! =p

oh yea and i'll be going to Genting on 1Nov (right, guys?) with my OG peeps. AHEM! hope it'll be fun.. and worth skipping two lessons! =p then GH and Clemen will be soooo jealous! :D

nah! this is what you guys wanna see right.. tsktsk! it's supernice cannn~ (:

thanks for everything.. the gifts.. the care and concern.. encouragement.. basically, thanks for coming into my life.. (:

2008-09-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

<3

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thanks to my peeps for emo-ing with me when i was emo.. i sincerely feel fortunate to have you guys around! (:

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既然已经作了决定，就不会再回头！加油吧！(:

2008-09-17T13:10:00.000+08:00

已经想了好几天了... ...
真的很累，很烦... ...
真的好想什么都不管... ...
把一切丢下，到一个没有人会找到我的地方... ...
这样，你们会比较好过吗？
很抱歉带给你们痛苦... ...

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thanks xiurong 姐, jerome 二爸, baobao, chinyee 太阳, deduan, gary 大哥, darryl partner, jeff...

there will be a conclusion...

soon...

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不想长大... ...
这样，可以吗？

2008-09-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

It's been quite sometime since i last blogged.. haha not too sure what to blog about.. too many things happened.. so much so that im rather lazy to talk bout them..

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anyway results were out on 02/09! was out for lunch with my ex-colleagues which consist of xr, may and lp.. and once we got back, the first thing i saw on ebuddy was Jer's "I PASSED I PASSED" msn nick.. and i got into a frenzied state.. it took me quite sometime to login to the student portal.. and the loading of the academic profile was unbearably slow! anyway, i passed all my subjects.. the subject which i thought i could do well in, i did really badly.. like just scrape through? and the subject which i thought i would fail, i actually did quite well (according to my standards).. but all in all, im just glad that i passed everything.. that my fears of repeating econs have been resolved.. that life's gonna move on without any major change.. and IM SO GONNA STUDY MY STUDY GUIDES when they come!

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and last fri was my last day at NUS High! it doesnt feel like holiday now though.. the past week has been spent singing and searching for clothes for our performance for open house and arts festival.. walking around town and then going back to school for singing lessons.. really tiring.. so basically, my room's still in a mess! and im still having cough.. cos i have been sleeping quite little.. havent been eating my medicine.. and im still eating all the fried stuff =p aiyahhh.

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这一次，我真的不想再伤害任何人。但面对这一切，伤害仿佛是难免的。因为必须选择，必须果断地做出决定... ... 我不清楚这是什么感觉。是感激？是感动？心动？同情？怜悯？还是... ...爱情？突然很想让别人为我做决定... ... 但我不确定结果会不会是我想要的。我真的越来越不了解自己了... ...

im not worth all these.. really..

2008-08-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

i was contemplating whether or not to post pictures of Esprimere Chalet cos i was only in FOUR of the ONE HUNDRED AND FORTY-THREE pictures Clemen took.. of which THREE are duplicate shots.. WHAT IS THIS!? hahaha. anyway, there are too many photos.. so here are those that i think are nice! (:

super nice.. i love the banner! :D

juniors with Clemen, Darryl and Jeff.. i have no idea when they took this..

one of the groups which did a forfeit for one of the indoor games..

they sang 大象 with christmas hats on..

this group too..

outdoor games.. in which i wasnt even involved.. ):

bao and clemen's group..

juniors + excos - me - yf = :(

haha i think the girls in exco were.... snoozing.. =p

our pretty juniors.. (:

what they did to me.. :( :( :(

thanks Partner, Jeff and Clemen.. i love you guys to bits!

last activity of the night..

EXCOS~!! :D

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im not gonna repeat myself.. but well, here goes.. it took me TWO HOURS to shampoo my hair FOUR TIMES and condition it THREE TIMES.. with the help of my dear ladies Taiyang, Deduan and Bao.. and by then, it should have been clean.. but no, i still found still bits of flour here and there the next day.. terrible guys!! hahahaha but i wasnt angry okay!! =p

you can say im tired.. im so tired of everything.. work + returning home at onli 11pm every night except on Monday.. due to singing on three weekdays and cell on friday.. totally burnt out.. so much so that i fell sick last week.. had this terrible sore throat which woke me up in the middle of the night.. and then, fever the next day.. and after recovering for a few days, im now having cough.. =/

results will be coming out next week.. i dont know what i should be expecting.. afraid of feeling numbed, just 'cause i've failed too many times.. expectations, failures, disappointments.. im scared. really scared. it's gonna determine how i fare the next two years. i don't wanna give up. but i cant help it if my heart decides to do so. :'(

sometimes i really don't understand myself at all.. what's wrong and what's right.. what can be done and what cannot be done.. i seem to be getting myself into something that i know is wrong.. something that im not supposed to be doing at all.. i seem to be drifting away from Him again.. what again this time round? :(

been thrown with lotsa questions recently.. the 'what if's, 'what is's and 'what not's.. suddenly feel so troubled with all the problems.. many of which i don't have solutions to.. im not sure how im gonna continue on from here.. really unsure of the next step to take..

amidst all these.. i feel really fortunate to have people around me who are constantly nagging at me to take care of myself.. yupyup.. 我是幸福的！(: really feel very grateful.. *nods* thanks (:

so we'll just keep on hanging here..

and you'll just be another passing figure in my life..

2008-08-13T09:40:00.000+08:00

okay so life's been hectic! haha. seems like im living life to it's fullest.. been totally tied down by commitments that i had to go late/leave early for work! there goes my money~

went kbox on monday with a new combination of people.. not bad.. some people can really sing.. i think i need to brush up on my skills.. haha. tuesday had piano lesson in the morning, so i only reported to work at 11am! and in the evening, we had our first singing lesson for the freshies! it was still okay, i believe.. seriously, sometimes i feel very fortunate to have this bunch of excos.. especially the guys who have been putting in alot of effort into everything. i shall try my best to get my enthusiasm back and put all my heart and soul into Esprimere!

and now (Wednesday), im going off soon to meet my colleagues for more KBOX! haha. apparently, NUS High's having half day today cos the kids have been producing tremendous results in national/international competitions and exams.. the kids there are really crazy.. im supposed to go for work from 8.30am-10am.. but i've decided to stay home and forfeit the 12bucks.. haha. will be meeting CHPT4 after that cos it's rp's bday today!! wonder whether she'll be surprised to see me? after that will be singing club's stuffs as usual.. gonna see the excos like everyday till sunday!

will be off for singing club orientation chalet from friday to sunday! :D

and i think alot ppl already know that i went for SRC interview.. okay, i got into Welfare's Children's Camp Committee which was my first choice.. kinda glad though i wished i knew more of the ppl in there.. i guess it's just another stage of transition again.. and because i got into SRC, i will put EVEN MORE effort into Esprimere.. i will try my best. really..

it's just a mere two weeks before the release of results. im scared. this time, i really am. i wanna pass all. please.

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这一次是我自己为自己下的决定
很小心你说慢慢来别怕来不及
如果我还有一点点不安或者迟疑
我不会对你的反应那麽好奇

落叶啊其实也很不愿意
其实也不想回忆谁没等到错过了流星
我们啊交集在这意外的假期
一定哪里见过你一定曾经梦见你

Fly Away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛
看着你就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定
Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
有一个人有一颗心早已经默默之中在那里

这一次问我自己都说我毫不怀疑
爱上你终於我发现我还有勇气
唯一我觉得遗憾的是我不够仔细
不了解你说那一些话的用意

几乎是所有时间在想你
快乐之後是压抑有没有过这样的呼吸
幸福啊只要一个眼神的交集
我们拥抱着刺激我们渴望着相遇

Fly Away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛
看着你就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定
Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
有一个人有一颗心早已经默默之中在那里

Fly Away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛
看着你就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定
Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
有一个人有一颗心早已经默默之中在那里

Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
是你的人是你的心日日夜夜陪我在这里

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我害怕我们会慢慢失去联络，
害怕我会渐渐忘记你的模样，
更害怕自己的感情会动摇... ...

2008-08-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

finally saw my piano results slip today.. got 26 (out of 30) for first two pieces and 27 for the third piece.. which is the components which pulled my marks up.. cos.. guess wad? i failed my scales! i ACTUALLY failed my scales by ONE mark! my teacher says it's obvious that the examiner deliberately gave me a 118 so that i cant get Merit cos my scales were terrible.. sighs. overall, comments were quite encouraging.. he said i put up a promising performance and can aim for higher marks if i could improve on my supplementary components (sight reading, aural and scales).. bleah maybe he wrote that for everyone? =/ and now, i have to decide whether or not to continue with Grade 7 practical or to switch to Pop keyboard! all those reading this post, give me your opinions please!!

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没别的只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定

你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧

想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

没别的只想说对不起
怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲你怎么做
也不会影响我的心情

你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸
难捉摸爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要
一想你我的心就狂跳

我的模样记不记得牢
情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你
听歌想着你
大地和蓝天出现的全是你

我才不管你的表情
我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳
你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你对不起对不起我爱你

只要不知觉地想到他... 想知道他每分每秒在做什么... 这就算是喜欢了吗？

2008-08-02T10:52:00.000+08:00

Piano exam results came out on wed.. Was having exco meeting at that time when i received a msg from my teacher.. let's just say im totally disappointed in myself.. i know alot of people have been telling me that i should be contented with my results after having skipped from grade1 to 5.. and the last time i took my exam was like 14 years ago? but the thing is that one of the things that pulled me down was my scales.. which is something i could really practise hard on.. but i lost it to myself this time round.. just simply too lazy to practise my scales.. totally disliked them right from the start.. and so i got a 118, which is like 2 marks away from 120, a merit? im not sure what are my teachers' expectations.. though it seemed like she's contented with my results cos she actually wanted me to take grade4 instead of grade5 this time round.. but! 2 marks! sighs~ ):

taking my grade5 theory soon.. though im still contemplating if i should just switch over to pop right after that.. feel that it'll be more practical for my club.. and if i wanted to challenge myself, i could probably serve in the worship ministry.. but for classical.. if im gonna learn all the way up to diploma but not teach, it's gonna be kinda wasted, i feel..

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havent been catching up on Jinglun's news after i heard that he's out.. totally sian.. dont even wanna watch the next few episodes already.. so i guess i wont be posting anymore videos.. haha. im just not the type who will wanna find out what went wrong.. so what if we discuss bout it.. the results are not within our control..

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cell last night was really an eye-opener.. lots of conflicting views from different people.. im alright with discussions.. but it got quite aggressive towards the end.. and it's not that it's not correct.. but that evoked some of my negative emotions too.. something which i wished did not happen.. i certainly did not enjoy the way opinions were brought forth.. lots of info.. and to add on, aggression.. agitated people.. it's not sthg i would enjoy.. was kinda worried throughout the whole thing.. felt kinda guilty for not speaking up.. it's not about which side im supporting.. if a bunch of people had their own individual views, and they were supporting themselves, it was still okay.. but not when they come together, combine strength and try to knock the party on the other side over.. anyway, all these are just my personal feelings.. as much as i hate to admit, i still have to.. this was how i felt last night..

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im just quite glad i didnt had, or rather, i've no reason to have, high hopes this time round.. im not even angry or sad seriously.. maybe just a little disappointed.. most importantly, i feel that the sincerity wasnt there.. cos you went back on your words.. it's just how much you value a person.. and how responsible you are for your actions and your words.. i kinda expected it to happen actually.. and im quite glad my instincts were right..

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一年了。去年去 foc 的时候，我们还有在传简讯。原本以为我会很快把一个人忘了，但却并非如此。原来我是那么重感情的一个人？哈哈。现在，真的要把简讯一个一个地删除掉了。也不知道为什么会一直把简讯留着。偶尔看一看，还会回想起当时的情况，对着手机笨笨地笑！你曾经让我快乐，也曾经让我不知所措。其实，你还真的蛮厉害的。哈哈。最后想说的是，你真的真的应该感到很荣幸，因为你曾经让我为你感到难过，甚至为你流泪！可以让我为他哭泣的人真的很少。哈哈。好了，就算我臭美好了！

谢谢你曾住在我心里。(:

回忆总是美好的。就在这里，为一切写下休止符吧...

2008-07-26T10:49:00.000+08:00

finally! ive decided to put up pictures instead of typing bout life for the past two weeks! it was hectic life i must say.. fod, piano exam, cell outreach, foc.. POOF!

Freshmen Orientation Day!

Freshmen Orientation Camp!

Hu8t disney 1st anniversary :D

GMs...

Cell Outreach @ Sentosa!

Cell Potluck at Weekok's house sometime ago..

Cell Chill-out Session at Holland V..

很乱。不知该开心或苦恼。明天会发生什么事，我们真的不知道。只好走一步，算一步了。纳闷。=/

2008-07-12T11:34:00.000+08:00

wah cant believe it.. starstarII is actually doing better and better. hahaha.

slow song!

dance song!

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Above all powers above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified laid behind a stone
You lived to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all

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一点点的感动。一点点的幸福。
就这样，就已经足够了。
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2008-06-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

guess last week's busyness was due to the piano concert.. cos this week's much worse! as usual, tues night after work, i had piano lesson.. on wed night, i went back to school to do the club's notice board which definitely has to be revamped like AGAIN? it's damn ugly la. anyway, after that had a short meeting so i reached home at bout 12am. ended up going to work late on thurday.. then thurday night i had cell group.. reached home at 11pm.. and last night, i went back to school again for club meeting.. reached home at 1115pm around there? this is terrible! my piano exam's on the coming friday.. and on coming monday, i will try to go back to school at night again, to do up our booth for orientation! on tues, i will be taking leave to mend the booth and i will be having 2 hours of piano lesson in the evening! wed will still be orientation but i guess i won't be taking leave already since i will have to do so on friday.. and plus, for FOC, i will be taking FOUR days of leave..

and meeting yesterday was damn scary.. after working out our dates for events and activities, we realised we will be seeing each other almost EVERYDAY starting from july.. lessons for excos ourselves, lessons for beginners, lessons for the main stream, crash course lessons for the newbies, orientation day, club chalet, internal and external performances.. WOAHH. im so gonna be damn sian seeing the excos.. hahaha. but let's just hope i won't be that stressed up after my piano exam.. it's just a week more.. AND! i must remind myself to do QT every night..

JIAYOU liane!! :D

this is last week's..

this week's! LEON LIM pk-ed him! i used to like Leon when he was in Project Superstar! :D

anyway, the curly hair girl that we (okay, i) teased him abt, back in sg..

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对你好，不是想得到些什么，只是很自然的举动与现象。因为我没有信心能够默默守候在你身旁，直到打动你的心为止。随着时间的流逝，感情会慢慢的淡化，脑袋瓜也会渐渐地忘记一切。

被爱总比爱一个人简单。

“被等待的人正等待着另一个人。”

2008-06-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

Past week has been kinda hectic.. was busy preparing for Sunday's piano concert.. and i had to make it a point to practise every night cos my exam's coming in a few weeks time too.. On Wed night, i went down for Everglow camp.. to visit them actually.. and.. something stupid happened. but anyway, it was a bad night seriously. i don't really feel anything now. it's been like 4 days already.. i felt as though i woke up from a bad dream on Friday morning.. it's been such a long time since i've felt so scared and lost.. the feeling's horrible.. lotsa negative thoughts and stuff.. but.. everything's over.. i've got short term memory.. gradually, i'll forget bout it.. im sure i will! (:

Yesterday! Piano concert! haha. wanna thank Sitong, Tai An, De duan, Peiyin.. and cell ppl.. Weekok, Matt, Jas, Marcus and Cam.. and of course Sinyee who brought me a sunflower and a gift from hk.. not to mention, she brought a GUY along as well.. hahahaha :p Andy ought to be glad i didnt mention his name. oops! Anyway, the pics Matt took will come into good use now..

THANK YOU MATTHEW! hahaha.

anyway, there are ALOT of unglam shots Marcus took when i was walking up the stage, playing my pieces and going down the stage.. i hope he's not gonna post them? and pictures with sinyee and dd/pei are not with me now.. so.. here are the pics that i koped from Matt!

spot my name! :D

the lousy piano which made ALL of us play badly. haha excuses excuses..

cell peeps! (clockwise) weekok, matt, me, jas, marcus (: Cam left early though..

MINE! :D

hahahaha my grade 5 exam book and the dying sunflower! thanks so much sindee sinyee wiggly toes~! :D :D :D

Anyway, dont ask me how i did.. i made ALOT of mistakes.. went to talk to Ms Chong and she gripped my hand super tightly and said that i performed very well and will do very well for my exam.. so nice of her to encourage me.. my running notes were totally yucky! =s

一直以为自己的直觉很准确。但这次却不一样。不知为什么，虽然觉得有点可惜，但却多了一份轻松。因为我再也不需要猜测他的下一步，也不需要思考他的一举一动代表什么。但是人总是矛盾的。突然间，我好像失去了一份盼望。

有时候，等待会很累，但心里的那份希望偶尔也会让我感到快乐。

“一件从未属于你的东西，也就没有所谓的失去了。”

2008-06-15T21:49:00.001+08:00

the new batch of excos went to school today, on a SUNDAY, to do our blog, forum and design our flyers for Open House. For more info, please visit Esprimere Singing Club's blog - http://esprimere-sim.blogspot.com (:

Sorry if the blog is very ME. haha. and please give your comments! (:

Seriously, after looking at so many blogskins, i have the urge to change my blogskin! But i have no time.. =/

Our dear senior finally sang 输了你，赢了世界又如何！Seriously, we should just use him for our flyers.. i bet alot of girls will join the club! haha.

Part 1

Part 2

你到底在害怕什么？

2008-06-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

GOOD ONE THIS TIME ROUND! :D

anyway, i didnt post last week's performance cos he looked like he's very lost as to what's the next step he should take. i really dislike the look. like he's lost all the confidence he once had..

sugie got eliminated ):

on friday, had POTLUCK at tayweekok's house.. i was kinda worried before that that many ppl wouldnt turn up or there will be a lack of food or sthg. cos seriously, it wasnt well-planned. plus it was my first week of work so i was kinda tired to coordinate things properly.. but everything turned out fine~ and it was quite fun! (: yays~

but eunice ps me today again ): supposed to go kbox.. she's soooo busy.. sighs. i havent sang for like 3 to 4 months can. i cant believe it! i used to go kbox like every week for my holidays..im so gonna go sing with qm and hm soon..

singing club activities are piling up! orientation, open house, chalet etc. kinda happy to see my fellow heartbreakers and the rest.. but Pei's not with us anymore.. ):

seriously, every single thing you do just puts me off, totally. like, what's your problem!? i get super frustrated, irritated, annoyed, disgusted and the list goes on.. everytime i NEED to communicate with you. and that's cos i need to. i don't want to, AT ALL. i know im super mean.. but, i just cant help it. i believe it'll get better someday. it definitely will. cos i don't wanna be bounded by all these negative feelings.

2008-06-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

Saturday went cycling with Jiahan, Jingjing and Seok at ECP! haha it was fun! though i was still scared of the slopes.. luckily the ones at ECP weren't steep.. and im having buttache and a bruised toe now.. =/

Some photos..

i actually intended to go home for a shower before going for youth service.. but it was pouring so heavily.. so it took some time for me to get back to bedok and take the train.. and we were drenched, walking from ECP to Marine Parade.. in the end i decided to go to church straight and stink up the whole audi.. and i was in SHORTS! can you imagine!? and worst thing was, there was communion that day! *faints* so if anyone smelled anything funny that day, im sorry.. it wouldnt happen another time okay? hahaha.

yesterday went out with cell ppl again! 12 of us! caught Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian.. it's niceee~ :D great movie! chilled at Billy Bombers den went off..

gonna start work tmr.. nooooo ): oh yea and i dreamt that i failed my econs.. haiz. very scared laaa. and i have to wait for 3 more months.. please please.. i wanna pass everything!!

im PMS-ing! =/

2008-05-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

past few days received two job notifications.. i didnt really find the two jobs on my own though.. was planning to go back to NUS High again but my ex colleague said they don't really need another temp now cos there is a temp guy already.. then received info from my mum that i may be able to get a childcare job ( sthg that i really want!!).. but the next day, my ex colleague from NUS High msged and said that her temp's hospitalised and will be resigning and she was like, "i hope you havent been looking for jobs? come back pleaseee.." so in the end i'll still be working at NUS High after all.. rawr. just when i could work with little kids.. anyway, it may well be a blessing in disguise since i hate changes.. going back to somewhere familiar may be good after all.. but i cant believe im gonna give up on working with kids just like that.. cos it's really very difficult to get a temp childcare job.. *sniffs* and for all you know, i might open a childcare/orphanage someday! haha. my dream la~

anyway, my crazy colleague then told me that i could start work today.. i was like "WHAT!?" im not even a week into my holidays la. just ended exams like last thurs.. and today's tues.. anyway, i'll be starting work next monday.. might as well start early since MOST (ahahaha) of my friends are working already.. and $$ is my motivation factor.. but the thought of working for 3 full months kinda turn me off.. haha. i know im contradicting myself.. but seriously working for 3 months from 8.30am to 6pm is totally no life la! i can already imagine how my monotonous life would be like.. after work will be dinner.. then after dinner, i will have to practise my pieces cos concert and exam are like coming soooo soon!? and by then i would be left with about 1 hour of free time before i head off to bed. haha and that's because i insist on getting 7-8h of sleep per day.. and i think that 1 hour will be spent going online and doing Quiet Time.. and im so gonna quit my job at the end of aug.. though my colleague kinda hope i can stay till mid sept.. but noooo, im gonna nua the first two weeks of sept away~ *yawns* the mere thought of working makes me sleepy.. Zzz..

2008-05-25T10:59:00.000+08:00

Part 1

Part 2

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today's entry will be a mixture of english and chinese as and when i like, to show that im bilingual! hahaha. okay just kidding. just have the sudden urge to type in chinese. im missing the use of the chinese language alot. haha. i think it's time for me to reply my china penpal. but it's very difficult for me to say comforting words in chinese. sighs. i'll just try. i have sthg i wanna post to her since eons ago!

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anyway, im so sad la! everybody's found jobs.. and nobody can go out with me, except on weekends! so currently, im like free next tues and fri! book me please!! if not i won't have enough fun before starting work! ): oh ya i forgot. everybody doesnt include sinyee (the slug) btw! hahaha. she's forever in the "im-looking-for-a-job" stage.. for EVERY holiday. and she'll end up doing road shows (not as the model pls) and not having a regular job. tsktskk. and that explains why she was able to go out with me on Friday!

okay so we went town on Friday and i was so glad i didnt bump into Nageb cos he told me he was going there on Friday too. but i bet he was kidding la. you should have seen me gasping when i saw this head bent down that looks like his! bald and shiny but streaks of hair at the side! but luckily it wasnt him.. and!! i think ive done soooo muuucch online shopping that i could recognize soooo many similar pieces that were sold both online and at FarEast. and furthermore, i remembered which site was selling what and for how much and for some pieces, the measurements.. *GASP* but i didnt like deliberately memorised the figures.. and i kept telling sy i saw which piece where and how much yadayada until she got quite annoyed and told me i should use my photographic brain on my studies! but it doesnt work la. my brain only works for things that interests me. sighs~ and after half a day there, i can safely say that as compared to the pieces they are selling, online shopping is cheaper. but the fact that we cant try and cant scrutinize at every bit of the clothing etc offsets the whole thing i guess.

in conclusion, i think i will continue shopping online. hahahaha.

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昨天依旧在 youth service 后，与 cellies 到了 motherland 吃晚餐。可能表面上我看起来还好，但是偶尔会觉得融不进他们的世界。可能是 frequency 不一样的关系吧？但也不至于听不懂他们说的话。只是有时他们说的笑话，我觉得一点都不好笑。总觉得自己在他们面前很放不开。跟一些人说话，总是战战兢兢的，偶尔说的话并不是心理所想的。觉得自己好虚伪。有时候，觉得蛮辛苦的。可是我又不想因为这些小挫折而逃避去 cell group 或 youth service. 毕竟已经撑了四，五个月了。因为是我的 year 2008 resolution, 真的不想这么轻易就放弃。

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其实觉得自己是不会被你影响的，可是不知道为什么自己总是不知不觉地注意你的一举一动。然后，被你所说的一些话语影响。我不太想继续思考其中的原因，因为太累了。

在不该下雨的季节里，我们平行的思念被连根拔起。

2008-05-18T10:18:00.001+08:00

Part 1 - starstarII with shino

Part 2 - starstarII's impromptu song with jeff chang

JJ Lin and Albert, this LA guy~ niceee~

i don't know why im so worried.. but ah, heck.

2008-05-11T10:49:00.000+08:00

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2008-05-11T10:39:00.000+08:00

haha suddenly think this song's very nice.. it was actually the song jl sang 2 weeks ago.. incidentally, another of my piano teacher's student will be playing this song for our annual piano concert in june.. eeks so unfair that they get to play pop songs and im playing my exam pieces.. anyway, i heard 光良's live version on 933 last night.. and it was really nice! (:

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了
我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过
也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了
我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过
但是对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早已注定不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我
我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪默默地离开

btw can someone teach me how to put songs here.. as in the one u can use your ears to listen.. hahahaha. i supposedly have imeem but.. hmm.. well..